When I looked in your eyes
I could feel
something
think it was hate
was it racial hate
or did I imagine
I felt anything at all
thou out of sorts looking
red haired
tall and skinny
male organism?

I keep forgetting
like a fool
never to look
into the eyes
of the
strangers
I keep forgetting
how much
anger
the rest of the world has
towards
almost anything.
Just like my co-worker.
if I mention
my joy for anything
be it music
films or books
so many of these young kats
they will rip
and tear
it all down

and if I'm not careful
I feel myself
at times
being infected with
their disdain towards
anything.

How can you live
if you lose your wonder about
everything
about life?

I think if you lose that
you hate everything
and everybody
then theres the part of you
it no longer understands
why I can laugh at something
finding joy in something

When did you lose your joy
or was it taken from you(?)
maybe you never had it
so you could never bear to be
too long
in the company
of someone like myself.

Don't hate me for trying to be happy in this world.