I wanted to forget you
but its a struggle
had to do this before
deleting photos
trying to erase somebody from my mind
wanted to get them out of my head
I guess I succeeded for awhile
so much pain
for some
nigga that don't even think about me
broke my heart
like it was
yesterdays news.
Just like you did
I don't know
was I wrong to fall?
Probably was wrong
of me
to tell you.
Guess I'm stupid that way.
Funny you said
when we met
I was closed off
like I'd given up.
Whats to be expected
when I keep meeting
people like you
a constant reminder
of what I may have moved past.
Sometimes it hurts so bad
that the pain feels
numb.
Its become
a pain that I'm used to
I guess
Just so much like that damn song
by Depeche Mode.
To think I thought I could love you
to think you could have been
at least my onscreen boyfriend right?
But you stood me up on audition day
I want so badly to delete your photo on instagram
from my ipad
I stared at your photo
started feeling
sick in my stomach
I don't know if its some psychic shit going on
don't know if you're in pain or
even alive.
Keep feeling
wondering if one day
we'll meet again
and we'll be friends
and I'll look back feeling
regret
because I deleted those photos.
I have to get over you
have to get you out of my system
this shit I'm feeling
thought I'd be coasting downhill by now
but it still feels like its an uphill battle.
They say getting someone to love you is not supposed to be
an uphill battle
so why the hell is getting over
someone who never was meant for you
such an uphill battle?
I'm trying to get over you man
Not there yet
probably whats keeping me from
deleting those fucking pictures.
One day I'll get there
oneday
I will have the strength
to forget about you
(Maybe if the gods are kind I will meet someone to make me forget your dumb ass even if you were /are well within your rights not to care about me there coulda been a diamond here?)
Until that day comes
when you have fled from my mental facilities
I am staying the hell away from
Coffee bean and tea leaf.

Right now I just couldn't deal with
that physical painful reminder of
your rejection.

I wouldn't even know what to say if we ran into each other
would probably fall to my knees like Superman facing a kryptonite cyborg
Well in my mind
thats exactly what I'd be doing
falling
screaming
camera zooming in on me
like Ola Ray when she saw Michael was a zombie

I am so damn dramatic.