Saturday, July 14, 2012

Posted a new video of my webseries SonsofLegend yesterday and it feels good to be making progress. This is actually my 13th episode. (Including the spin-off series DragonManx)

SonsofLegend ep 9 (Posted yesterday)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1blL_G3y45I

I was in Detroit for the 4th of July thanks to my boyfriend Stan. I call him Blueberry Teddy Bear. BBTB is alot like having the perfect boyfriend. A cool guy who totally gets me and puts up with my crazy. We put up with each others crazy. Truthfully theres not alot of crazy. I am obsessed with making short films and we live so far apart that we are still in the process of getting to know each other. BBTB came into my life right at a point where I wasn't sure if I'd ever date again. Its pretty crazy out here trying to connect with someone. I think thats goes for whether you are gay,straight or whatever. I ran across him years ago and there was a sorta spark but it didn't blaze into much so we kinda drifted out of touch for a minute. Then we reconnected and he took the big step of flying me out to visit him on a business trip in Colorado which is a very beautiful place. I really wish I'd gotten some pictures of those mountains when the plane flew over them on my trip back to LA. After Colorado dude came here to see me in LA for Thanksgiving. He returned around New Years and we went to San Diego. I think it was in Feb he flew me to New York. After that it was uh Chicago. Then he sent me to see my brothers graduation in Orlando. After that he flew me to Miami. I think thats when I picked up this cold it took me forever to get rid of. I was so freaked out about this cold (that is only NOW leaving me) I went and got an HIV test tuesday when me and a buddy visiting from Baltimore went to an at the meantime mens group! I think BBTB could be the one. This cute bald headed furry guy from Detroit has looked closer at Sergio the person than anyone else has dared try. Honestly many folks look at you from the outside and I think they are quick to walk away or they have some KRAZY high expectations. Maybe they are on some level blocking themselves from being happy because they don't feel they deserve to be happy or they think no one is gonna put up with their shit. But we all have SHIT. We are none of us perfect. I just thank GOD I found someone I can focus on loving and I don't have to waste energy running around trying to find a needle in a haystack. Love or the potential for great love is always near but people need to let their guards down a bit and drop kick this cynical/jaded way of thinking. Find something you love....pour your passion into that and your passion will make people gravitate to you. Why? Because alot of people are not passionate about anything and they don't really believe in anything. When they see you are happy I think it awakens the sleeping child within them. Just be careful with some of the damaged souls you'll attract. Some of them can be....well some are just dangerous. Have fun,live your life and don't give up on love. Most important of all never lose sight of the GOD that dwells within ALL creatures. Have to admit at times this is difficult. BBTB helps keep me grounded.