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 Its hard to believe 2023 is almost done. I'm sitting here at work with alot on my mind and there are alot of things I've planned for 2024. This is the year Sergio really gets his shit together. In more ways than one. SonsofLegend will be getting its soft reboot as a film. My DragonManx comic will be coming out and meanwhile my Sasquatch cartoon will be getting released. Honestly I've so much onb my mind these days I've been doing peculiar stuff like forgetting things and just feeling out of sorts. I suppose thats a good thing because I'm not wasting my time worrying about BS. Yesterday I actually left some new shoes in my Uber and thats really not me. By the way the driver never responded to my calls or even when customer service paged him. So I'm pretty sure (and others I've spoken to agree) he just decided to keep the shoes. So that happened. Anyway it all worked out because I was able to get replacement shoes but it still blows my mind how trifling people can be. Yes even after all this time.

-To be continued-

Speaking of Uber divers I have been using Uber alot, especially for going home and coming to work as its usually much cheaper than Lyft for some reason and I've had the honor of meeting some cool drivers. The other night I had a cool trans woman as a driver and we had some interesting conversations about life in the lgbt community as well as "The Artist Formerly Known As Bruce Jenner" who was once called "He Of The Dramatic Collapse" because that's how he finished many races when he was a world-famous athlete. Early on in the conversation the driver goes..."oh and by the way" as if to surprise me by revealing she was trans and my reaction was almost no reaction. I told her about how working at the center all the years has pretty much made me "surprise proof" when it comes to stuff like that. Truthfully its gotten to the point I suspect over half the people I come into contact with to be trans. Even in hindsight some I may have gone out with in the past. We were talking about how some trans folk regret transitioning and also about youngsters going under the knife. She feels its easier to go thru it younger because your hormonal development hasn't quite kicked in yet so later in life you won't look as masculine or fem. I also told her that if there was a way I could magically transform into a woman I'd do it as long as I could change back. Of course, this isn't something I tell everybody. I like being a guy too much to wanna be stuck as a woman. Much respect to women needless to say.

Well, I feel there's more to write but it's time for me to go home so maybe I'll be back later or sometime before the first of Jan 2024. If later than that Happy New Year. 

Confessions of a sad superhero book 131

 Its Christmas Eve and I had a breakthrough just now while laying in bed really wishing I had some sort of sleep aid to help me sleep. What happened was as I lay there feeling kinda down and with a weird sort of irritation in my stomach my mind started flashing back in time and I was remembering or thinking of stuff I hadn't in years or just things I pretty much forgot. It was uncanny reliving these memories...Grandma Mary's house. Picking blueberries and boiling them and making sandwiches. Making banana sandwiches with a bit of milk,water and a bit of vanilla extract. Watching old cartoons. Watching Soul Train with Grandma Cora and my sisters in New York back when she was still alive. My first video game system (Coleco Vision) that we pretended to be surprised on Christmas morning when we unwrapped it! Playing with my little sister Fatisha when we were first introduced. Crawling around with her and some fuzzy memories of pumping water outside or using the outhouse and getting eaten alive by mosquitos. I thought back to spending time with friends and family...cutting school and reading comic books like Richie Rich or Archie digests. X-Men and even how sometimes I stole comics and videogames. Yeah some of the memories were unpleasant. I thought of Jeffery my first boyfriend and how much fun I had in my 20's going to clubs and hanging out at my Grandma Mary's house or even with some of my cousins who I have drifted apart with over the years. Being a kid and riding with my Grandma Cora when she went to pick tobacco then afterwards we all rode back home but not before stopping to get Mountain Dew sodas and chocolate moon pies from a local store. God I used to love those things. Marshmallow goodness sandwiched between two chocolate-covered cookies. I also love the banana ones and sometimes if I find them in the market I'll pick up a box. It was as if a light shined on my to burn away the dark cloud that has been hanging over me for awhile now as memories of my past helped me to remember who I really am as a person as opposed to the shadow of me I was becoming. If that makes any sense. If you are not careful the world and cruel people can turn you into a mockery of the person you're supposed to be. You have to remember the good in your life if you want to hold on to it. So it is true you are who you were. (Before the world got a hold of you and poisoned you)

Yesterday I got up and went out to catch the bus to go see Aquaman 2. After waiting over half and hour for the bus I realized I was gonna miss the 8pm show so I had to abort as I didn't want to catch a later show and risk being stranded waiting for a bus home. Honestly its a bit embarrassing to admit since I never use the data on my phone I have yet to figure out how to activate the service. (I only use the Wi-Fi functions if I am not using texts or phone call service!) Its these times really one starts to remember the convenience of having friends with cars. Especially here in LA where like 85% of the population seems to drive. At times I miss having a social life but mostly I've accepted on some level this probably won't change until I move up in life career wise. I think when you don't have a car to some its the equivalent of being a bum and it feel silly to say this but thats the way it is. This is why I sometimes consider moving back to New York (or to another big city) because not having a car there doesn't make you a social outcast. Before I decide to move Ima need to start putting some of my things in storage so I can have less clutter in my life. Putting my stuff in storage is gonna be an epic event which will involve moving in/out some furniture so I will likely have to call in some favors. Anyway since i didn't see Aquaman I just went to McDonalds and grabbed a 10 piece chicken Mcnugget meal with a sprite. Got back here where I played some Vampire The Masquerade: Bloodhunt on PS5 and watched some stuff on tv. The new Exorcist movie. Zach Snyders new Netflix sci-fi epic. Continental on Peacock and David Oyelowos western on Paramount. Still not really sleepy but I'll probably go back to bed after awhile. Really did want to fly somewhere for this holiday but my money wasn't quite right but I need to plan a trip to see my father really soon. Probably Easter because I'll have accrued adequate vacation time to visit long enough to really visit but not long enough that we get tired of each other. Over the next couple of months much of my focus and money will be towards getting SonsofLegend filmed. After New Years Day I'm gonna hit the ground running because I've been lagging behind on some of my goals. Yeah I have a list and I do take it out and look at it sometimes but I need to do it more often.

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 Today was somewhat eventful. I ended up spending over an hour on the phone with PayPal customer service and Bank Of America customer service due to a company I paid $225.00 up front as one half of a fee to do storyboards for the Sasquatch cartoon kinda ghosting me for a week. No response to emails, phone calls and texts is all just a big giant red flag as far as I'm concerned. Also this Sasquatch project has been stalled for months now since we've had so much trouble finding a storyboard arist up to the animator's standards. This has really frustrated me greatly to the point I have honestly wondered if we'll complete the project. So as it stands I'm once again looking for someone to do storyboards as I'm done working with the person I tried to hire. 

The DragonManx comic Kickstarter was a success and comics will be getting sent out to folks early 2024. Meanwhile I have a couple of directors interested in the SonsOfLegend soft reboot but I've yet to really decide who I'm gonna use. But one person has been difficult to reach by phone and text which is a problem for me so... In other news the Sasquatch comic is coming along and that will be done pretty soon. No lettering has been done yet though. 

-To Be Continued-

The Orange Hat.

Last Saturday as I was about to leave work I asked a co-worker which hat I should wear...a cool orange one I really like that says "Art is for everyone" with two earring-type loops in two holes on its rim or a cool black cap that says "Sasquatch believes in you" She said the black one because she doesn't like bright colors. I have noticed that when I wear bright colorful things people just seem to stare or be fixated on the object and I know for a fact some folks don't dress in bright primary colors because sometimes it just seems to draw attention. Makes one stick out and theres that saying you know that the nail that stands out the most is the one that gets pounded the most. What is it about bright colors that make people want to punish each other? Gangs do it. I'm not sure animals react in this fashion but yesterday as I stood waiting for a light to change on my way to pick up a pizza a truck went by me with an older Mexican guy and he laughed really loudly as if to ridicule me. I guess I'm wondering if I hadn't stuck out with my orange hat would he have done that? During my first year in LA a brother yelled at me "What you doing wearing that red shirt?!?" and this was near Sunset and Vine nowhere near any gang-affiliated area. How crazy the world has become where other people want to attack you for wearing colors. Then again many just attack for any little reason. Being bald and youthful I have been approached in a threatening manner by other guys asking me where I'm from. They think I'm in a gang. Some folks have been mistaken for gang people and even gotten shot at. People just keep coming up with reasons to try and kill each other, don't they? Anyway I think this color subject could make for an interesting short film. After all, it has been proven colors can affect your moods or even how others react to you. This is sometimes called "Color Magic"