Old friend
I often think about you
the lying ass that you were
I still forgive you
because
you kept me laughing
and you were there
during some of those
dark days
but I never understood
your need to lie
about everything
these friends of yours
celebrity connections
you never even showed me photos
but you claimed to have hobnobbed
with hollywood royalty
still I can forgive you
for blowing smoke up my ass
all those years
even when I let you move in with me
just don't understand why
you felt this need
to play pretend with me
I'm not like all these other motherfuckers
I don't need you to be famous to be my friend
don't need you to
play pretend at being
someone you're not
because you were always
good enough to be my friend
even when your ass couldn't fit thru
the damn door
and you didn't have a penny to your name
because thats just how I roll
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Brothers
why ya'll be killin each other?
Why ya'll be tryin to kill me?
Can't turn on the news
or read the damn paper
without seein
some brother
done killed another
mass genocide
uncontrollable rage
towards each other
could be some sorta misdirected shit
but I ain't done shit to you
so why you hate me?
Walkin down the street
nobody dares make eye contact
I feel like I'm cut off
and then when I do look in your eyes
its like
the rage of a wild animal that wishes it could
consume me
but these days I feel like
wild animals are more brothers to me
than these people who are said to be my brothers
who in truth
want me dead
and they've banished me from the kingdom
when they coulda took me in and raised me
like those wild wolves and lions are doing now
Was lost in the wild wilderness and the animals saved me.
I just do not understand
why our villages
burned to the ground
and all the elders or avatars
who coulda fixed everything
they just fled
(hell I'm trying to leave)
and even if I do leave
and I make those millions
I won't forget to put some of that moolah
right back in the community.
I know there are others like me
they wanna escape
this crazy way our life has become
and only a wild animal like
what I've mutated into
can leave that bread crumb trail for them
to survive that wilderness trek to
Shangrila(?)

I hope that you survive and prosper brother
sister.
Just don't turn into a wild animal like me.
Seems the wild animal
that invisible hero
who comes down
from  the mountains
to fight with the monsters
you never see
well....it usually doesn't get the happy ending.

I had to lose some of myself to survive the storm.