(Soundtrack to this blog courtesy of Pandora via THE FOREIGN EXCHANGE channel)

Its been a roller coaster for me the past few weeks.  Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining. There has just been so much going on. I just found out my Grandma is having kidney issues. I thought I was gonna have to fly out to see her because her condition got so bad. My sister called me last week to tell me Granny was in the hospital. After talking with my mother it was revealed Granny had a bunch of fluid build-up in her legs and they had to take her to the hospital where they found a growth in her colon. Also it turns out her kidneys were at 4 percent. So she will have to have a machine to take the place of her kidneys. I know a guy who has the same thing. He's like my age but his condition was likely caused by his HIV. Granny is 86 and health issues are to be expected yet when these things happen its never easy. Especially when I keep remembering youthful and vibrant Granny from my childhood. Now she has memory loss and seems a shadow of her former self. This is very sad to see a person go through this. She seemed to be getting better after spending some time in the hospital but when they brought her home she got pretty bad off again so they now have to keep her in the hospital. Granny is having trouble with her legs too. Right now they are saying she is unable to walk but in time with therapy she can regain her strength.  I am at work feeling so much emotion but no tears are flowing. Maybe I'm too tired. The last few days I had a pretty bad headache that took its sweet time leaving. This seems to happen every few months. Its likely sinus related but next time I have to go get myself checked out. I'm not sleeping very well because of my pigeon problem on the balcony. Plus I have as usual been stressing over finances. Right now I am producing two webseries,a cartoon and a comic. Stress had me down last month when I had a cold which lasted so long I went to get an HIV test just to make sure. Having a boyfriend helps things yet there are times it gets hard as we only see each other maybe once every couple of months. Everyone has problems and I realize some folks are dealing with things that would make me cry because I can't rescue them. Knowing this helps me keep things in perspective. Having outlets help too. I have to thank my higher power for giving me a way to channel stuff. A way to express. A way out.

In another week I will be getting another SonsofLegend episode done. Episode 11. THis will be my last film project of the year. Gonna make it special. The script is pretty fun. It has alot going on and definitely raises the bar as far as story content and cohesion go. The special effects will rock as well. This episode is probably gonna be about ten minutes long because theres alot of things happening. There will be flashbacks utilizing as yet unseen footage. There might be an epilogue at the end too. Depends on how I feel when we wrap on the main stuff. My goal is to have an 8 hour day. Then I am getting flown out to wisconsin to see my partner the next day. Basically the ultimate birthday present. Hopefully I'll be rested enough for the flight. Ugh. I am not too big with planes but it is what it is. Turbulence sorta freaks me out. So anyway the day of our SOL shoot starts at 4am. This is because I was able to talk one of the owners of the donut shop into allowing me to have my crew shoot a scene in their dining area. Only catch is if we want good sound we have to come an hour before opening which is 5am. I'm excited though. Some of the guys are helping with production. Its a good time to be in the biz of making superhero films. Recent events almost put a damper on things you know. What with the Batman shooting in Colorado. This upset me so badly that some nutcase cast such a dark shadow on such a great film. Personally I believe he was possessed. Its hard to think otherwise. Its so crazy that the world has become so insane that folks can't even take their families to the movies in peace. Sometimes its almost as if we are gradually losing our freedom. It makes me wish I could simply pack up and go live on another planet. Just to get away from all the forces trying to tear happiness away from us. Speaking of moving my sister Beverly AKA:Miss Big Nose. is trying to get me to come stay with her in Orlando. Miss Big Nose moved from Jersey after her hubby died several months ago. Curtis was one of the coolest guys I ever had the pleasure of meeting. I miss him. Truly good people do not come a dime a dozen let me tell you. I could stay in Orlando for a few months to decompress for sure but I wouldn't stay there. You know? NY or Cali is where a filmmaker ought to be. I think so. Yes I do NEED a break from Cali. It would be nice to spend more time with family as I take a break from filming. Its gonna sound crazy but sometimes I think filmmaking makes me stupid. (Laughs) My mind gets so bogged down with creative stuff that other things just don't even seem to matter. This bothers me at times. Theres memory loss. Absentmindedness. And yep I am eccentric. theres like 90 percent of my brain dedicated to creativity and the other 10 is for everything else. I thinks some of the people in my life understand this and thats why they overlook some of my behavior. I truly at times am unsure whether I'm coming or going. Says the guy who WALKS out of the grocery store without his groceries. Seriously. Four months of NOT thinking about scripts will do me some good. Luckily theres plenty of footage cached that can be edited into new episodes for awhile. Maybe two episodes of DragonManx and Maybe four SOL episodes. Might release them next year though. The plan for 2012 is to stop releasing SOL episodes at ep 12. As for DM maybe at ep 4. The other stuff will come out next year. That way I can have some momentum as I film new stuff in 2013. In 2013 two films will be produced from the SOL mythos. At least thats the plan. Gotta save that money and get some financial backing. I'm ready for SOL to air on SYFY I don't know about you. I'll take straight to video too if that opportunity presents itself.