*(To new music friday on Spotify from various artists)*

Revenge of Dangerous Africans and other curious tales:

LOS DANGEROSO AFRICANO

I did something I don't do so often anymore
picked up the phone when you called
and you blasted me
blasted me for not calling
anymore
blasted me
accused me of
this american way
of ignoring
and simply throwing away someone
over
nothing
but you hurt me man
and I don't think you will ever understand
completely understand
just where I am coming from.
It is true
no day passes without you passing thru my thought processes
I guess I really did (do?) love you more than I thought.
Can't put my finger on it really
the why.
You are funny
cool and sexy
the sex was always mind blowing
then you made me feel
like the opinions of other people mattered so much more than how I feel
plus you kinda expect me to be cool with sharing you
and I try to come to grips with these things
as none of us are human
and if I can't forgive you for your shortcomings
how can I expect people to pardon mine?
It seems I was so wrong as to think
you'd given up on me.

Its all I can do not to pick up the stupid phone and call you.

And its strange you'd call now out of the blue
just when I made a decision
I was at least gonna try to remain open
to the idea of daring to
give some sort of chance
some sort of hope
to daring to perhaps date
on some level.

Its like you somehow sensed
that I was serious about
moving on.

Moving past the one man who had meant
the world to me.

Held me
pulsated within
deeper than any other
on so many levels
and I'd be lying to say
I don't miss it.
The smile and the laugh man.
Did you know I stopped going out
became a kinda hermit
broken inside
so broken
when
life and the villains of my life strike out against me
it hurts so much more than it should or would before.

I have not been the same Sergio since I cut you off.



(Switched to KRS One "World is mine" on Youtube....)


ADVENTURES OF THE FORGOTTEN MAN IN A DETATCHED WORLD

Punish me
because I care.
Push me away
ignore me
try to make me feel left out and
invisible.
Tell me with your eyes
theres something wrong with me
because a part of me freaks you out.
Maybe something about me intimidates you?
Yes theres an attempt being made here
to understand why
you go out of your way
to set up a barrier
or is it me setting up barriers?
Am I psychically making others feel how I feel
or is it my body language?
Feeling like a lone warrior type
even though on some levels
the lone warrior probably needs
some people in his/her life
at some part of the time.
Say I'm crazy
for thinking these things you think don't matter
but I cannot help but watch you from the corners of yes
because I don't trust you.
What secrets would I see if I could read your mind?
Sometimes I feel like you could be in my head
watching and observing my life
(Is that vain of me?)

Its not always easy
co-existing with you man
wanna be your friend man
but you scare the hell out of me at times
I see theses secrets
things I don't bother to speak on
because I'm worried
things might change
you know?
So I keep you and the rest of them at a distance.
I have been down this road before
you see?

Just gimme a moment to process the information.

Out here chasing the dream
chasing some paper
(gotta pay these bills you know)
hoping its all gonna be alright.
I mean it would be so nice
if i could go  a thousand years
without having to read or hear about
somebody dying
another stupid terrorist attack.
Wish so much a superman
(or super woman)
would just fly down from the heavens
and make these fools
play nice with each other
take away their weapons
and nasty energy
teach them to be as beautiful on the inside as they often are on the outside.
Yes Middle Eastern men are usually HOT.
Yes they are.
The terrorist comes with a smile thats golden and sex appeal out the wazzoo
but he wants to blow ALL THAT UP???
Fucked up state this world is in man.

Pains me
my head sometimes
pains me
so much
the aspirin don't work
and my stomach was bothering me so much
I stayed home from work today.
Is this body falling apart?
From what I see
how people treat each other
negative energy
from bad things people say or do
it seems to jump into me
the kind guy
who likes the animals
likes the toys
likes being able to hope
smiles when I can help re-ignite a lost dream in someone else.
All I do is listen to this music
eye opening
spiritually enlightening
social commentary
fueling thoughts of living somewhere
far away from all the crazy.
This struggle its been kept on the low man
a struggle to reclaim self esteem
struggle to maintain with the laughter
because this world is often deadly serious
lets not kid
perhaps none of us gets out of this thing without being half crazy huh?
People running red lights
not stopping at the stop signs
trying to cut you off on the freeway
in a hurry
so much of the time
trying to go
absolutely
NOWHERE.
People setting fires
taking the drugs
running from feelings
or trying to jump start
the ability to feel
ANYTHING
while time speeds us by.
Don't wanna hurt nobody
even when others try so hard
expending energy coming for me
when they should focus on getting their own shit together.
So I struggle to reach for more you know?
struggling to laugh as much as I can
you know
as time flies by
struggling to heal this mind
doing the impossible
living this epically crazy adventure
of a detatched and forgotten man
trying so desperately to remember
the me that was
before.

Its ironic I need the then
to deal with the now.