(Listening to Jazz on Pandora from the Xbox 1)

I finally got around to eating that pie Alanda gave me. It was one of those sweet potato pies Patti Labelle has been in the news for recently. I gotta say the pie was delicious and I am gonna savor that last piece thats left in the fridge now. I was initially concerned about eating the pie because although it had been frozen the expiration date was Dec of last year. But luckily I have a cast iron stomach. It did sorta give me the poots but otherwise no harm was done.

Last night I spoke with someone who is gonna come on board to help me with production on Daughters of legend. Because GOD knows I have been feeling overwhelmed lately. Had to kinda take a step back to collect myself. Already been stressed out over other things. Paying bills. On the job stuff. Then theres the back and forth of am I really happy being single and is this REALLY the end of the line for me as a gay man and maybe just maybe I really should consider dating women since I seem to be invisible to other gay men. I mostly made the choice not to date anyone until I have gotten my film career off the ground and achieved financial independence. I'd also like to get in better shape too. Some people tell me when I start to gain popularity folks will actually start to approach me for dates and whatnot. But I'm not sure I believe it. It really feels as if I am getting used to being just with me. Feels like the door is closed and one day I'll get me a dog or a cat. Perhaps I will adopt some kids or something when I'm able. I have little faith in finding a man who will fill the void. Is there a void or is it all in my mind? What if I have too much crap going on and its really not a good time to even be thinking about dating or relationships. Shit I haven't been with anyone since like last year with "The Dangerous African". Single life isn't all bad all the time. At age 47 you have to look at the writing on the wall. Gotta learn to enjoy your own company. Try not to obsess over the havenots and realize theres more to life. More things to enjoy. Rediscover the joy and wonders of life. Travel. Get a new hobby maybe? Take up an old hobby. Start making peace with the fact that even though some days it might hurt its certainly not the end of the world because you are out here in the world on your own. Have to remember there was a time I wasn't dating or having sex and it wasn't all bad. My life was alot less complicated too because I didn't have to deal with anyone elses shit....

(Watching Captain America:Civil War)

My editor Luzilla just left. He stopped thru to drop off a completed cut of the new DragonManx episode. Thing is its still kinda rough. Some of the special effects were not up to quality so unfortunately no one will get to see me fly....yet. Yeah it was that bad. Me and Luzilla laughed alittle when we watched the episode but I gotta say I can finally see the progression in quality of the cinematography. Also Luzilla has really become some sort of a special effects guru. I have an investor now so I can afford to go bigger in regards to these projects. More moolah=better cameras,better sound equipment plus I can afford to pay the actors more. The investor for the moment is only interested in helping guide the Daughters of Legend film project along. He does seem a bit fascinated by some elements of the SonsofLegend universe. He and Luzilla are trying hard to steer me away from doing anymore Youtube videos. Thing is I am not really doing the Youtube stuff for money. I never really was and thats good I guess. Sometimes you have to do things because they are fun you know? Its not always about the money. Speaking of money....recently I hired a writer to help me out on a secret SonsofLegend spin off project. The pilot is nearly done. Meanwhile I am working with a lady writer on the full length SonsofLegend project. Theres some footage already done for this project but much of it may need to get reshot due to quality issues. Hopefully I can have a trailer done before the year is out. In some regard to this film I'd like to partner with a couple of guys who worked with Disney but they are probably out of my price range unless the Kickstarter campaigns are a success. Having big names attached to a project can only be a good thing. Could pull in some investor interest as well. Its been hard to do fundraising yet I've not given up on it as realistically speaking....well its just gonna be hard to shoot these bigger budget projects if I am the only one paying. My investor has limitations too. He's not made out of moolah.

We were supposed to have a meeting earlier with the director and some other crew members. Luzilla had a death in the family plus my investor couldn't make it. I was also hoping that the new person I am bringing in to help us out with production would be able to make an appearance. Looks like the meeting will need to be rescheduled for sometime next week, We probably won't really move forward until everyone is able to sit down in a room face to face just to make sure we are all on the same page and this Daughters of Legend project won't seem so chaotic. As it stands we won't go back in front of the camera for Daughters of legend till July. Gotta plan and make sure the money is right you know? Originally I thought this project would be 10 grand but now its looking more like 20 grand hence the fundraising efforts. I'm gonna have to hustle like crazy to raise the moolah I need but a good trailer could make all the difference. We might actually have enough Daughters of Legend footage to put together a decent trailer. Need to work with the music guy though to get the score together. March 2018 will be here before we know it and we have to have the DOL film completed by then.