(To Lemony Snicket soundtrack)

Brain is tired
tired of writing
eyes are tired
of staring at that
bright
white screen.
Took a little break
took time to be me
so I could remember to call
all those people I promised to call
but didn't.
Took a little break
so I could binge off junk food
stuff I shouldn't eat
yet its nice to not care
if only for a moment
about
eating
all those sweet/sour gummi worms
eating those terribly expensive donuts
&
drinkin all that
expresso
All that
natural juice with scarcely any real juice
Along with the
SUPPOSEDLY "natural pepsi"
(Yeah sure whatever)
Now I am finally making some real progress
in saving the universe in
Lego Dimensions
&
Killzone
&
Skylanders
Hell I might even finish one of those
Call of duty games!
Still haven't had the time or incentive to go out and get the newest.
My backlog of games,movies & tv shows is simply astounding.
As are all those comic books I've yet to read/finish.

Trying to get into the dating but
noone seems interested
or maybe its me thats not interested enough
to care enough
because I really am getting accustomed
to this being single.
It makes me alittle uncomfortable to understand
for any number of reasons
I might've reached that point
of no return. Maybe it'll say in the history books oneday
"At the age of 46 Sergio realized"that" part of his life was over".
My head is clear for now at least
Not clouded by story plots
script formatting
budget cuts
and thoughts of
GOTTA MAKE IT WORK
I'LL GET THRU THIS SOMEHOW. I ALWAYS HAVE.
WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS
....I DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS.
CAN'T SLEEP UNTIL ITS DONE
FINGERS ARE TIRED
LAWD I DON'T WANT CARPAL SYNDROME
YET I GOTTA FINISH THIS
AND IF I GO OVER THESE MANY PAGES
AND WHAT IF HE DOESN'T WANNA HELP ME ANYMORE?
AND WHY DON'T THEY UNDERSTAND
THIS SHIT DON'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT
TAKES TIME
AND MONEY
AND I'M NOT MADE OF MONEY
BUT I THINK THEY THINK I AM.
CAN'T PAY THIS BILL IF THIS GETS DONE
MOMENTS LIKE THESE I COULD USE SOME DIVINE
HELP!!!!
NO ONE WILL EVER REALLY KNOW THE PRICE I PAY UNTIL I'M GONE
AND DID ALL THOSE BEFORE ME HAVE TO GO THRU THIS SHIT?
IF SO I NEED THAT HANDBOOK
BUT OF COURSE
THERE REALLY ISN'T ONE.
'Que Sera, Sera'
My head hurts
I'm always hungry
Thirsty
(Mentally and physically)
My poor sinuses
plus my back at times
at times I gotta force myself to sleep
at times touching of self clears the cobwebs
brings some clarity
chases away much of that negative energy.
Chases away the naysayers
lessens the impact
of trying to survive out here
in a world gone insane
seemingly devoid of any morals at all.
It also lessens the impact
of all those mysterious obstacles
that pop up every now and then
the computer glitches
flagged ads
emails that don't go
packages that don't arrive.
People I trusted turning on me
Cops profiling me.
Dealing with crazy folks
who just ain't got NO sense
at all.
So....yeah the brain is tired
just a bit
and I don't think the world of
social media will mind
If I
go away
for just alittle while
so Sergio's nerves can recover
and he can return to being himself again.
Not quiet brand new
More like refurbished to factory standards.
Need these viruses and harmful malware removed
systems purged of needless files clogging up the works
plus a memory upgrade is needed.
Because this brain is tired of being tired
Eyes are tired of being tired
squinting
blurring
with the irregular heartbeating
the clutter in the room
like the clutter in my life
things all built up because I let it pile up
was focusing on other things.
Gotta go back
clean up all that damn clutter
one day at a time.
No more running.
This time
theres no excuse.
This time....!
....This time
for a moment in time
my appointment book is clear.