Thursday, January 31, 2019

There's always one....

So I went to the restroom for about two and a half minutes at work and I come back to hear someone banging on the door as if they were the police. I opened the door and she (the Y/C client) stormed past me with this look of pure hatred. Its a look I tend to get from some of the kids that live here honestly. I know that it seems to be in for gay men and some women to be edgy, moody and just armed with a nasty attitude. Bitchy. Its one thing about the culture I really don't quite understand. But alot of black folks have an edge too. Particularly those of us who are more Americanized. Its just annoying sometimes because I never did anything for you to be so mean towards me. Folks will tend to lash out at you if you seem happier than they are. I guess.  So this girl storms in past me shooting me the nastiest look ever and the maintenance worker who saw everything told me she'd actually jumped the gate to get inside. Now mind you it is only me working alone some nights and if I need to go to the restroom I have to leave my post momentarily because I'm not a robot. Robots apparently don't need to use the restroom. I know I can never allow myself to get too comfortable working here. Theres always in the back of my mind that some of these kids I am protecting sincerly HATE my guts. Its not just me either. Other security guards have told me about how they are often disrespected here. It does make one feel weird when the people you are trying to help come at you with so much negativity. Security guards get a bad rap at times too. People call us "Snitches". Then theres the stereotype of the fat coffee guzzling donut obsessed moron with no life ambitions. Seriously I wish I could see more positive type kids in real life because I don't have the rosy outlook about them everyone else seems to. I just worry the next generation is in trouble because of how they act and how they think. What kind of role models do they even have?

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