Is it all imagined
that others often copy my actions?
Is it all imagined
I copy others actions
at times.
Concealing feelings
fighting emotions
acting like I'm anti-social
and thats not really who I am?
Am I merely adapting
to this
unfriendly
undeveloped
hostile
and limited in its communication skills?
Have I let others infect me so much with their issues
that they have become my own?
Does it make one sick
to ignore feelings
suppressing them because you know
the other person could never feel the same way?
Its not easy to have unreciprocated feelings
but over time it becomes easier to resist them because
a wise man who had many wives once said
"It shouldn't be an uphill battle"
Its crazy enough
to survive in this crazy world we live in
that I just don't have the energy or time
or motivation to want who doesn't want me.

Fuck them.

Even though I wsih them peace at the same time.

Does that even make sense?