Role Model Dilemna.

Its strange
when I look back I see
most of my role models
I don't think they looked like me
still people though
just white people though
(Relax I love everybody)
Adam West
Gunsmoke
Lee Majors
Salems Lot
Adrian Paul
Greatest American Hero
Michael Knight
Love Boat
Lucy
Bewitched
I dream of Jeanie
Fantasy Island
Automan
Dynasty
Dallas
Flamingo Road
Falcons Crest
Hotel
Buck Rogers
Jaime Summers
and a woman of wonder
A warrior princess
a vampire slayer
a kid from Smallvile
three sisters who were charmed
two brothers with a legacy to hunt monsters
They were all mostly white
just like
pretty much all the heroes
heroines
in the videogames
cartoons
novels
and comic books
and fantasy
action
horror
adventure
picture shows
movies or tv.
Sure there was Bruce Lee
Jet Li
Jackie Chan
Will Smith
Jennifer Beals
and dare I say Cosby?
Stevie Wonder, Michale and Prince helped raise me
and Teena Marie was the cool aunt I guess
Chaka,N'Dea and George Michael took me to the rink on weekends
But
I think its safe to say
much of my rasing was
almost
entirely
by white folks
even though I lived in their worlds
I still lived in this world with the other black folks
people of color
gays and lesbians
the outcasts
who looked ALOT more like me.
Some of the white folks in the other world lived like me
even though they didn't look like me
X-men
Scanners
immortals
some of them vampire folks
they knew the deal when it came to feeling like
you didn't fit in.
I didn't talk like I was black folks told me
they still do it now
but its mostly in how they look at me
or how other folks treat me
cuz they don't know how to act
when they encounter a brother
who talks like he has some sense.
I'm not that guy they see
on tv
in those rap videos
or in those violent movies
beatin up on they women folks.
I didn't really understand why
folks used to tell me
I acted white
now I finally understand
the hows and the whys.
On the inside
even if I can be just as pro black
or as pro gay
as the next man
I think I'm probably culturally
multiracial.
A product of two worlds
not really feeling like I belong completely in either.