BROKEN AND RAGGEDY LEGACY
(At least its mine)

I KNOW WHO I AM

I am
the nervous one
often the unwanted one
who's always thinking
dreaming
flopping around trying to walk
with legs that may work better
as fins
sometimes I think
thats what chips away at the cuteness factor

I am
The one who
looks in the mirror
even when he doesn't want to
The one who understands
I must chase these dreams
fight to make them real
but theres some things
I can never have
some things
I gotta lay to rest
for the sake of my sanity
and maybe
just maybe some things
and people
I gotta run from
until that day comes
when I can allow my self to rest
the way
I really need to rest.

Gotta keep on
going on
believing in me
not letting what some think of me
define me
Can't keep being the victim
Can't keep letting
these angels
who forgot how to fly
ground me
not anymore
Gotta give my all
to this thing
this tangible
object my eyes can see
my spirit can perceive
this greatness
this promise of
freedom
artistic expression
and even some semblance of
financial stability
Its okay to retreat sometimes
into the music
the comics
the videogames
and all these stories
these films
those words other people write
as long as it keeps me strong in my goal
keeps adding wind to these sails
keeps giving me
footprints
to leave behind
(because the internet is forever)

Maybe oneday
these ramblings
will help someone else
become unlost
in this maze of
the unfound?

Everything else is a distraction

Don't have a problem
staying invisble a bit longer
acting stupid enough to fit in
Can't afford to rock the boat
just a visitor here
just passing thru

This is who I am
for now

Gotta keep
building
this building
even with
all this storming going on around me
and the people are looking thinking
what the hell is wrong with this guy?

I can see the finished design.
Even without a drawing
I know what its gonna look like
come what may.
Crazy man that I am.
Crazy enough
to want a legacy
no one else would dare touch.

I am the crazy dreamer
chasing a tornado
trying to get into
the eye of the storm.