Its raining outside right now and I'm sitting here at work typing on my laptop with alot of emotions flowing thru my mind. So many changes have been happening lately in my life. I spent a year working on a film then I made a desperate decision that sorta backfired on me which ultimately resulted in the powers that be taking the story in a whole different direction. Since I am under contract theres not much I should say about the situation other than I'm happy the film was completed yet also hurt about the way some things were handled.

A buddy came into town a few weeks ago and I was too broke to really do anything with him when he got here. Of course much of my money goes towards my artistic pursuits. Drawings. Meetings. Paying people who have worked on my projects. Paying writers for scripts. I am only now just starting to get to a point where I am able to save some money. Trying to decide if I'm gonna take a little vacation or film something next month. Mostly I'm resigned to the idea of relaunching the SonsofLegend webseries. I need to save at least a couple thousand dollars before I start on another project though. Usually I just get started and pay folks either two weeks later or in installments but this time around I wanna do it differently. Guess I am starting to learn some things huh? As anxious as I am about filming again there is still a part of me that is apprehensive. Just don't wanna make any mistakes or put out anything thats not good quality. But the truth is I feel sorta empty inside when I'm not working on something creative. Making films used to be something that made me happy until I married it with business and all the emotions that come from working with others. I'd just like to get back to making stuff that makes me happy without thinking about money all the time plus I had so many arguments and experiences that it made me crazy for a minute. Yes some good times were had and good friends were made but arguments just really take a toll on me. I tend to stay mad at people for awhile so you can see why I would kinda keep my distance from folks who might bring out a certain side I'm not comfortable with. I would rather get into a fight with a horde of angry monster mutant trolls than get into an argument with someone I consider a friend. Not sure if that makes much sense but there it is.

-To be continued-