Some current events and some ramblings.

Had some more crazy incidents over the last few days. I honestly wonder whats going on with the world I live in. Last week a few muslim women were being insulted by this crazy white guy on a bus or train in Portland Oregon and when three other passengers came to their defense the crazy white guy looking very much the spitting image of a horror movie serial killer type commenced to stab all them. Of the three only one survived. One of the men stabbed was a veteran. Then just the other day three men drove a van thru a bridge in London plowing through people and after that they jumped out of the van to go on a stabbing spree. Some people in a restaurant were stabbed but the police arrived then shot all three dead. Radical muslims took resposibility for the attack. So now Donald Trump is trying to re-instate the travel ban he implemented months ago that was struck down after causing three days of chaos at airports all over. I can certainly understand his actions regarding this matter but I don't know that its necessarily the best idea. People are starting to get scared about going out to big crowded events and even going to the movies. Some believe we could have sleeper cells here in the US and basically the travel ban which specifically targets six muslim countries is to keep those of ill intent from entering the country or to limit their ability to move about freely thru the transportation system. Some years ago I was hooked on a show called "Sleeper Cell" I went out and bought the dvd set of season 1. The main villain of the show Oded Fehr is one of my favorite actors. He's a sexy middle eastern guy who has appeared in a few of the Resident Evil movies. The main character with the dreamy blue/green(?) eyes is another of my favorite actors. He's a brother named Michael Ealy.

Some of the problems with the travel ban:
It could create tension within the muslim community. I mean not all muslims hate us but being discriminating towards any group is just gonna create animosity and cause problems in the long run. The travel ban is kinda a subtle way of doing a witch hunt in my opinion.
There are some radicals who believe there will be some sort of a holy war where the rest of the world world will rise against the muslim religion and this travel ban certainly would create some bad blood. In fact it might even lead to some people becoming Isis supporters if they feel their backs are up against the wall. Of course if these attacks continue (and they most ceratinly will) people all over the world are eventually gonna just get tired of it and turn against the muslim religion anyway.  I find it hard to believe no one else hasn't realized this. If that happens then the muslim community will be either forced to go underground or possibly wiped out. That is unless they begin to police themselves before it comes to that. I think the muslim community has wised up because recently Qatar has seen other countries including Egypt and Saudi Arabia cut ties with it accusing it of supporting terrorism. Of course in a perfect world where everybody has common sense this type of thing would have happened years ago. The truth of the matter is the threat of radical type attacks will not go away for many generations to come and the future youth will have to deal with this shit as normalcy from here on out unless the muslim community pitches in to help. No more with the staying silent bullshit and I know some in the muslim communities have spoken out yet its not enough and needs to happen more before ALL of us lose more of our rights. Not just the muslim community is gonna be inconvenienced if they start putting video cameras everywhere and tapping our phones. I dread the thought of having to sit in long lines of traffic before being allowed into airports because vehicles are being checked before entry. Flying has already become a hassle since 911 what with the having to take off your shoes and belts then having your bags searched. You can't bring liquids on the planes anymore and people can't even wait at the terminals with you before you fly out. Its ridiculous but as terrible as this all seems it could get crazier if we have anymore big incidents. Imagine what could happen if they simply stop allowing people to travel with luggage altogether. Think that sounds insane? Well laptops are already forbidden in some airports now. We will gradually see many freedoms we take for granted stripped away from us if things continue the way that they are now.

No its not all doom and gloom with me or the world. Its just that things are changing so fast and getting so crazy I wish a space ship would come down and take me back to my home planet because this doesn't feel like it. Sometimes it gets to be a bit much. Especially when you have alot on your mind. Yesterday I had to call my mother to make sure she wasn't affected by a shooting that happened over there in Orlando. A week ago when I went to San Diego for a little visit the Uber or Lyft driver had to drop off some people in the skid row area downtown. I have never seen so many homeless people all congregated in one spot like that before. There were so many tents too. It looked as if I'd entered a campsite. So many people have nothing or are living in these terrible conditions. Then on the flip side we have so many who have so much money or power yet they really do much of nothing to help the situation. If every rich person gave a million dollars to organizations or just came together to create a movement to stamp out homelessness and hunger imagine the impact it would have. For all the awesomeness and wonder of humanity there is also this feeling in me that humanity has in so many ways failed itself and this world.

Had a pretty bad run in a few days ago with a young lady over at the youth center. I was working there;filling in for another officer currently on vacation. It was a nasty scene that shouldn't have happened yet it did make me wonder just what the hell am I still doing working here when I keep constantly questioning if I still have it in me to continue being a security guard. Its a high risk job. Its thankless. People often ignore you or look down on you even though in the event something happens you are the one who will come to save their asses. Sometimes theres on the job politics and then you have to deal with so many personality types even when working the night shift. Its stressful and I worry my nerves have just worn thin from the years of being here. But its not just my job. Its everything sometimes. Sometimes I feel like if I could simply go away somewhere for about two or three months I could come back refreshed and ready to face everything. This kid was really laying into the youth counselor so I tried to step in to help resolve the situation then that negative energy transfered to me then next thing I know I'm there yelling with the girl because she went off on me when I politely asked her to lower her voice. I feel crazy so much of the time but interestingly enough its usually only when other people are around that I really understand my crazy might be trumped by the crazy of the masses. I try to avoid stressful situations still there are times you can't keep it away entirely. Some security guards have had to deal with worse situations than me though. Some have been spit on. Some have been punched and beaten up literally. I've heard some pretty crazy stories. I guess all I can do is maintain awareness at all times while continuously working on my dreams and praying that the day is fast approaching when I will be able to transition into a job which doesn't feel like a job. Something that although theres work involved I will be challenged creatively whilst being surrounded by others who understand and elevate me. How cool would it be to have co-workers that you can actually share a friendship with outside of the workplace? How cool would it be to feel like you're not on the bottom of the food chain because there is no bottom of the food chain? How cool would it be to be able to go to sleep when ever you want to and not because you have a set work schedule to worry about? Other people complain to me about their jobs. So few are really trying to do anything to get out of the trap though. The way out is to be working on a way to have your money work for you and not to have to work for your money. In a perfect world everyone would want to be financially independent.