Sunday, June 17, 2012

Well friday came and went. Miraculously I was able to get the filming done for the SonsofLegend project. Thank GOD for ingenuity I say because we had to do some improvising on all fronts when two actors had to leave early. I was able to gain access to the rooftop across the street from my apartment building. Yes it was guerilla style but we managed to pull it off. What was supposed to be a teaser ended up becoming a full episode. I imagine it will clock in at about 4 minutes. I found some cool actors. Two in particular were awesome. Not just because of their martial arts background but also because they were real troopers who were totally into the project. These guys gave their all and I think this will be something great to show on their reel when Mack is able to start with the editing. Which brings me to something that has been bothering me for a while. I have so much footage that needs editing I have decided to take a break on SonsofLegend and DragonManx filming for the rest of the year. There are some other projects including Detecter Pig that I must focus my attention on. Since its become painfully obvious I am gonna be financing my projects until I can start to get recognition at film festivals I have to pool my resources. In other words I gotta make that dollar stretch. I can't speak for anyone else but my observation has been that black folks...gay or straight are not the biggest supporters of sci-fi fantasy stuff. The genre dearest to my heart. Actually I think society as a whole has a problem seeing these types of films unless there is/are (a) white male lead(s). People seem uncomfortable if something is too ethnic. To be fair you have ALOT more freedom in the world of indie film but it frustrates the hell out of me to see even great short films like "The DL Chronicles" can't get support from the very communities they are catering to. And even the great George Lucas can't get love when he makes a cool epic action film with an all black cast. I personally would like to see more films that reflect the real world in that when you walk down the street you don't just see white folks. A film should be the same way. As should a comic book,a cartoon or a videogame. Yet in all these mediums I enjoy I feel people of color are too often under represented. Even in a time when we have a black president. (I guess I got on my soap box again eh?)

So anyways I will be flying back to Florida this week. My boyfriend is flying me out to see him in Miami. It will be nice to get away from Cali and get in some real relaxation. (As if thats gonna happen right? The relaxation part. Because I almost NEVER relax. Remember the thing about the shark swimming? He drowns when he stops...) I wish I could shake this gloomy feeling I have had the past few months. Its like a genral feeling of not feeling....well not really feeling too much of anything. Not to say I am numb. I just feel a bit apprehensive without exactly understanding why. Is this mid life crisis shit? Mostly I feel unsatisfied. When I first came to Cali I was not as focused as I am now. Sometimes I feel like I am racing to play catch up. Like I should be more successful by now but somehow I got behind schedule. Don't wanna miss that window of opportunity. Then again everything happens for a reason. I'm where I'm supposed to be. So are you. Maybe the problem is I need to learn how to enjoy the journey more so that when the destination is reached....it will all have more "something". I keep getting a sense of being right on the edge of greatness. Theres something I need to do that will be the catalyst. So no Sergio is not sad or unhappy with his life. He simply is annoyed its taking so long for this thing called "success" to arrive.

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