Sergzilla's Homecoming Part 2.

Jussie Smollett is in the news these days. Seems theres a strong possibility he lied on a police report saying he was the victim of a hate crime. It certainly polarized the gay community for a hot minute. Then we all got to thinking....wait a minute. If he did in fact get beat up then wheres the video evidence? Turns out there is none. Meanwhile Donald Tramp er Trump is still trying to get his wall built. He's even gone so far as to declare a national emergency to dip into funds that are needed for other things. Like a real emergency. Stuff like military construction. Money for medical treatment programs etc. A young woman who wanted to join Isis is being deported and a white ex marine who believes in white power was taken into custody whilst the law enforcement confiscated a bunch of weapons he planned to use to kill liberals and "as many innocent people as he could". This world is so crazy sometimes and I keep asking where these people keep coming from. Seems just when things appear to be quieting down another psycho rears his or her head. My theory is something is affecting these people and making them do these things. In some cases. Maybe its supernatural or theres some science involved. That makes alot of sense actually. So much time has passed so mental manipulation by technology would be pretty advanced by now.  It does worry me that some of my younger family members are gonna inherit some of this craziness. It'll probably be normal to them at some point. Mass shootings and terrorist attacks. We've always had issues within society but when I was a teenager I certainly did not have to worry about going to a damn mall and some fool with an agenda might come out and start acting the fool. Of course Orlando has seen its share of insanity. The whole Pulse club shooting comes to mind. The thought of visiting that place did pass thru my mind truthfully. What would it feel like to go to that place where so many terrible things happened? Or even the World Trade Center a place which I have visited so many times in the past. I believe I'd feel something. Spiritual energy swirling all around. Anger. Confusion. Just terror of what they went thru and then finally what was taken from them by this coward. A little boy with a big gun punishing a bunch of complete strangers who had their own problems and its likely if he'd asked for help a fair number of those (whose lives he took) woulda given him a listen. Yes I still believe in the good or potential for it people. Even though my brothers niece "J" worked my nerves while I was there on vacation I can see she has a pretty sharp mind. I wonder if anyone else has noticed it yet? When you observe kids doing crazy things its easy to forget how bad some of us were when we were youngins. I heard a couple of stries of my legendary childhood. The toddler years. Once I heard I threw a tv out a window. Mommy told me a funny story about how my grandma Cora had to put wooden borders in front of the open doorways in the house so I couldn't enter. Poor Grandma would always forget about about the wood boards and she'd have all these bruises on her legs from bumping into them when Mommy would come to visit from NY!

At one point during my vacation trip home I was sitting down and she (my niece) creeped over to the back of my laptop while I was surfing the web and went about trying to peel off some of my stickers and I told her to stop it. She quickly moved away from me. Then there was a time when my other niece "K" was playing Mario Kart on my Switch while I tried to teach her how to use the weapons and the freakin accelerator. J came over and was like "I wanna play the videogame" in this quiet kinda shy voice. Now she acts shy whenever I offered her candy or when Mommy asked her if she wanted to hang out with me but this kid has a pretty clear idea of what she wants and how to manipulate people to get it. I told her I would take it under consideration. She promptly went to her dad and said "He won't let me play the videogame" Joshua told her "Its his. He doesn't have to" I guess I kinda felt sorry for her and I let her play but maybe I shouldn't have? You can't just think its okay that when people tell you "NO" you can run to daddy to fix everything. "K" is a terrible player but at least she does actually look at the screen. To "J" I think it was simply a matter of her getting what she wanted but not really caring after she got it. Its gonna be interesting to see what kind of personality "J" has when she gets older.

As for "J's" father Joshuazilla he's still got some growing up to do even despite the fact he is tremendously intelligent. Months ago he got into it with Mommy and Eddie my stepdad and they basically put  Joshuazilla out. I remember getting into it with my father once. It was over some stupid little shit. Probably built up shit in all actuality. I was washing clothes and he hit my hand because I didn't do something he'd asked and that night I moved out to go stay with my grandma Cora (my moms mom). Its unfortunate but even in the wild the parent animal often has to chase their offspring out and then they get a chance to go experience the world. In time me and my father were cool again and that was the last time we ever argued over anything. But Joshuazilla and my mom were still butting heads while I was there. I stayed out of it. I'm not a "hoverer" and its not my business to interfere since I am a stranger to the feud. Mommy explained to me some of the things that have gone down and me and my sisters constantly remind her she and Eddie would have killed us if we did even half of what they let "other people" get away with but anyway....I did speak to Joshuazilla. Just told him no matter what these are your parents and you gotta give them the respect because without them none of us would be here. So there's that to consider. I'd like to think he listened to me. It hurts because if I'd been there more in his life when he was coming up maybe I could have helped provide some more guidance. Eddie and Mommy are getting older now and this is the time they should be relaxing and enjoying what they have you know? They shouldn't be stressed out. Mommy made a remark about me giving her grandkids but geez would her and Eddie survive another one? I'm not gonna harp on this anymore but "J" is a handful and she single handedly disrupted the breakfast the family took me out to Saturday. I warned Joshuazilla he's gotta get her under control because I know a few people who couldn't get their kids under control and they had to send them away. Both "J's" parents are so young and yeah its safe to say they were not ready. I just don't want to see them make the same mistake many parents are making these days by being more of a friend than a parent. And thats all I gotta say about that.

My stepsister "Miss Big Nose" and younger sister "TT" have their own family units going on. Miss Big nose has four kids. Three girls and one son. He is a super nerd like me. He took after his father who I met briefly many moons ago. Unfortunately he passed away but dude was super cool and I can remember us hooking his Playstation up to my Grandmothers tv when we all went down to NC to visit her. She passed like six years ago. Its still so weird her not being here you know? Miss Big Nose has a red Wii on her living room floor. She had no idea Nintendo cut all the internet services from that machine just recently. She is from Trinidad and she has naturally red hair that everyone thought she died when we were in high school. She was a tom boy. Not so much into comics but she was good at videogames and an excellent basketball player. In fact she played in a lot of games and in many ways I always felt she was like the son Eddie never had in me. Because I wasn't into sports at all and sucked at math. I was a big weird nerd. I was always getting into trouble too because I hated school so I'd cut classes and hang out with my friends at arcades or wait till everyone was at work and sneak everyone over to my place. They ended up sending me to a school for troubled kids. Plus I had to attend summer school. Going to school for me back then was a nightmare. I'd get picked on. Slapped around and spat on. Those New York kids were no joke. In many ways I'm probably mentally traumatized by many of the things that happened to me in those years. Miss Big Nose actually was able to protect me from some of it because she was popular. My sis the jock. Excuse me "Jocktress". I remember we used to sit up late listening to people like Luther Vandross, Heatwave,Mickey Howard, Teena Marie and Patti Labelle on the quiet storm. WBLS. KISS FM. I would get on everyones nerves by constantly playing "Let me show you the way to go" by the Jacksons. I practically worshipped El Debarge and his family. I'll never forget the summer of "84" when "Whats love got to do with it was in constant rotation on the airwaves. Ahhhh. Those were the good old days.