Update on the "Mr. Ninja" situation. So I sent homeboy a text. The text was saying since I have a three day weekend I was interested in meeting up to talk and if he didn't want to to or couldn't that was fine and then I said going forward I think it best we keep things on a strictly friendship level. I also said I think on this we can agree. He texted back saying that sounds good and that he was gonna be out of town.
I felt like I had let go of some weight or something because now I have no expectations from this man. Truthfully he's been letting me know he wasn't available for a good while yet I was holding on to hope of something I just hadn't come to accept could never be so now as I sat here watching a Tina Turner documentary I could totally relate to being in a situation of feeling completely free after walking away from a painful situation. Like Depeche Mode said this was/is a pain that I'm used to and it doesn't have to be the new normal...being in a situation where the pain is so bad you yet you just take it feeling like you can't get out but you can really just walk away from anything once you get to that point where you are just not gonna take it anymore. I don't really know what happens now but maybe...maybe I shouldn't let broken unworthy people shut myself off from daring to let myself date. When I'm ready. When I'm ready.
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