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 Listening to Iheart Radio 60's station.

October came and went. But at least I was able to get out of town and visit my family in Orlando. It was cool seeing everyone and hanging out with my nephew Curt who is as big a nerd as I am. We went to Universal Horror nights where I ended up getting hoarse and destroying my cellphone which got replaced when I got back to LA! Its my tradition to go home for Halloween. My mother told me that I am always welcome there and some folks got on me about not visiting more often (and staying longer!) I just think its better to be missed than to wear out your welcome you know? I did get to see my brother Joshua. Its pretty obvious I'll never have that ideal relationship with my brother I always wanted. I do blame myself for being so distant in his life as he came of age. God knows I have tried to have some sort of relationship with him and we can get into some incredibly deep conversations about life and metaphysical stuff yet theres a weird wall between us. Just feels as if he were somehow compromised. Like someone may have affected his outlook on me. Maybe its all in my mind but whatever the case it is what it is. Theres really nothing I can do to make someone want to be a part of my life. This is something I have had to make peace with over the years in regard to other folks as well. Mr. Ninja for example. We saw each other yesterday briefly and it was as weird can be expected. A slight nod of acknowledgment then we proceeded to go about acting as if we never knew each other. I guess we didn't actually. (I was stuck at work much later than usual for accidentally locking a door staff was unable to open until around 9am. some folks were pissed at me as their belongings were locked inside. Purses. CAR KEYS😞 And yes I got in trouble) So life goes on and we simply throw away something that coulda been cool. A friendship at least? Its funny how people can be this way. Someone cool comes into your life and then you just move on and act like you completely forgot about them. Seems to be the new normal with these gay men now treating each other in these strange manners because of unresolved issues within probably. Thing is he kinda looked...well not as if he was really keeping himself up. I mean to say usually I'd like to believe when someone is with someone they are likely more concerned with how they look. Could be wrong and its not my business. Part of me hoped maybe he'd call since we hadn't spoken in so long. Its been months yet its another slap from reality that these fellas out here are just on some whole other trip and I gotta focus on me or become as nuts and emotionally distant as they are. Right now my focus has been on my artistic endeavors. Theres a kickstarter campaign going on via the company publishing my comic "DragonManx" We have raised $1800 of our $2000 goal. Theres still like 5 days left and we might not make that unless we put in some money ourselves. As for my Sasquatch cartoon...the person I'd wanted to do the storyboards has dropped me like a bad habit because we'd been playing phone tag and much of that is due to my schedule and bouts with anxiety/stress. However, I got some cool comic book art for the Sasquatch comic adaptation of the cartoon. Getting back to the Kickstarter campaign...I have been doing these little videos everyday to promote and ask for funding. Trying to be direct without begging you know. Now I know how those radio station deejays I used to clown about fundraisers feel. It is hard trying to get folks to give you money. Fundraising aint no joke. Was even able to get my mother involved in one of my videos. We did this cool question and answer session at her house. Was real nice scenery too as they have fixed up a nice little den area. They actually built it since the last time I was there. Only thing missing is a BIG tv which they'll likely mount on a wall. Was planning to go visit my father before the year is out but that might not happen until the new year because I need to save up money for projects and you know...surviving. Also Comic Con LA is coming up in a week so gotta decide what I'm doing for that. A co-worker is bugging me to go and it would certainly be a great opp to promote things but this is something I need to decide on. Should go ahead and get my tickets in case the event sells out. All the "normies" are invested in comic conventions these days so this makes getting tix challenging more often than not. 

The world is going through some shit right now but every now and then something will happen to help restore my faith in humanity. Now it has not escaped me that other folks have helped me throughout the years but it was an awesome surprise the other day when I was doing my laundry and my landlady put my clothes in the dryer for me and started the cycle. This is what one would call a random act of kindness. When was the last time you did a random act of kindness for anyone? So I am grateful she did that and it makes me want to as they say pay it forward by helping out someone else. Maybe I'll even do it anonymously. Its not hard for me to do things for other people without expecting something else in return. How great this world would be if everyone thought like this? One can but wonder...

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Two guards were let go last week. Apparently, they let in someone who was not supposed to have access. I was surprised because usually people are given some sort of warning (as far as I know) before they are just let go. These were two VERY good guards and its not gonna be easy to replace them. Yes I do miss them. One gave me Sega Dreamcast and an OG PS3 like a month ago. I dropped the Dreamcast so I am sure its gonna require some repair. Ugh. My PS4 and ipod still require repair too. Wish I had extra money man because these things would have been fixed but my comics are still in production then theres the cartoon and the relaunch of SOL. If it wasn't for money I have in my Stash investments would be completely broke. Definitely need to improve my finances going into 2024. Gonna be doing some heavy-handed cutbacks soon...

Planning to go to Florida as usual for the Halloween holiday. I'd like to go to Universal while I am there because I haven't checked out Florida's Universal Studios yet. Seems bigger than the Universal here. I already told my nephew to make plans although he says its gonna be hella crowded with looooong lines on that day. It would be nice to spend some time with my brother but I'm having to make peace with the fact he and I are never gonna have that cool relationship some brothers have with each other. Its weird because I heard some pretty crazy things about his behavior over the years and he's been basically banned from my moms house except to drop off or pick up his daughter. Sometimes I feel really guilty and I get angry at myself for not spending time with dude when he was coming up. I think I could have been a positive influence in his life and maybe saved him from some of his butthead decisions. Maybe. Was too busy living my life and trying to figure out who I am. In some ways perhaps I still am.

Oh yeah the ambulance came here to assist with a baby who was having trouble breathing (I heard) 

Its all over the news now. Whats going on with Israel and Gaza (Hammas). Whats going on? Well on Oct 7th Gaza fired a bunch of rockets at Israel towns and broke through the border where they killed 1400 people and took hostages including elderly and children. Israel responded by bombing Gaza. (Hammas is an Islamist org which rules Gaza) On Tuesday a Gaza hospital was hit with an explosion and hundreds were killed. Its an insane situation and it just blows my mind how many people murder each other every single day over some BS. Its like we just need to be fighting each other or something. I think some folks can't stand the idea of peace. This conflict has been going on for awhile now and it looks like the US will get caught up in this mess which means its gonna become everyones mess because it'll likely lead to terrorist attacks...something we've not had to really deal with for a few years now. 

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So they shut down the 7/11 down the street from my job now at 11:30pm every night now. I have worked in the center for almost 17 years and this is the first time this has happened. 7/11 is usually open all night so now we have to go somewhere else for late night snacks or coffee. Supposedly this happened because of all the craziness that tends to occur in this area. Prostitutes and drug dealers hanging around. People fights. People stealing from the store. I myself witnessed a man chasing another man around in the store stabbing him with a screwdriver. A clerk was recently jumped and beat up by a bunch of folks. Staff have been assaulted. The straw that broke the proverbial camels back (allegedly) was the glass to the store being broken due to an attempt to snatch the ATM from inside. All this is to me is more freedoms we are losing or things being taken away because of the actions of nutcases. On the way in to work I had an interesting conversation with my LYFT driver who is from Japan and he was telling me about how in Japan mentally ill people are just taken off the street and placed in mental facilities. Also homeless are placed in programs to give them jobs or training. Crime happens but it is not like here and the law enforcement over there do not play. But then again folks are more civil over there and as one of my supervisors put it people are taught from an early age to actually give a shit about each other. Guns are not allowed either. Not saying Japan is perfect but man I am so envious of folks who live there away from the madness that happens here. Honestly I really have been thinking alot about moving out of the states. Just don't know when but I need a change so I'm not walking around in fight or flight mode literally ALL the time. They say stress releases some crazy chemicals in  your body and over time its a silent killer. That build up. I've lost weight. I feel tired so much of the time and there's this feeling of oppression that often affects my ability to focus or be creative. I think the rejection of a certain co-worker did some major damage that affected me on such a deep spiritual level it spilled out into the real world because I never just straight up said I was done with love and relationships and REALLY meant it. Really mean it. That shit put me in such a deep space I don't ever wanna go back to that again. Ladies and gentlemen we have found Sergio's "kryptonite". Yet what good is one who knows how to love in a world where everyone has forgotten how to love? I dunno...is everyone else just as scared to love as I am or did Thanos cast a spell to keep us from reproducing? This shit is real. People will walk away from a relationship-oriented truly good person who they can build something with and run to straight up garbage or unattainable folks or people they have no business messing around with because the very idea or concept of something pure scares them shitless or I think its just easier to have disposable rendevous as opposed to letting someone in enough so you and team up to overcome your issues. So sometimes it really is THEM and not YOU my friend. I am a dinosaur. I am like Captain America now...a man trapped in a time that is both equally unfamiliar and unsettling. Maybe its been this way since the moment I was birthed. 

Microsoft finally acquired Activision/Blizzard/King and I am soooo happy. I mean its gonna be cool having all those cool games available on GamePass and even better having access to them via the cloud on ANY device that exists. Can't really take advantage of GamePass here at work though since they block cloud access unless one has their own personal hotspot. Something I have considered investing in. Speaking of games this is a big week for gaming. A new Mario. A new Spiderman game. A new Sonic game. Even a new King Kong game. Its not very good though. Definitely needed some more time in the over to bake. I tried to record some of my gameplay footage for King Kong but the stupid recorder didn't record so we'll try again later. Hopefully, I'll be able to get some Sonic gameplay later as well because it has been taking forever to download and update for some reason. Sometimes I wonder if its because I want to play it so bad. Spiderman 2 is like 100 gigs on Playstation 5 so I gotta pre-install it starting today if theres any chance at all to play it this coming weekend. I hate that you have to open the PS5 to add more storage. At least Xbox lets you add external storage even though its expensive as hell. Might do a Nerds With Badges episode to discuss the new games coming out. Did actually film an episode like a week ago to talk about my new Chromebook Plus and it did feel good to be back doing something cool and creative like that. Really I wanted to test out that 1080 video camera the CB+ has! 

Had an interesting dream yesterday involving me taking a bus then falling asleep and ending up somewhere unfamiliar and taking a photo on my phone of an unusual looking building. Seems I may have been on my way to school which there was some dread about. Over the last few years I have been dreaming about school. These don't feel like good dreams at all because I was feeling apprehension of being there or some worries about school work or tests. School was particularly tough for me. Never fit in really and there were some bad people who went out of their way to thoroughly traumatize me for their own personal gain I guess. So yeah I don't want to have any dreams about being anywhere near a shool. Ugh. Well, an ambulance is outside now so I gotta cut this entry short and see what the hell is going on...

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The world really is changing. The 7/11 down the street from here (at work now) is closing at 11pm now due to the number of incidents that keep happening at the store. Incidents with people of questionable character. Sometimes homeless. Sometimes mentally ill. Sometimes troublesome prostitutes. Sometimes folks looking to rob the place. This is pretty sad to me because I have been working at this company for almost 17 years and I've witnessed how crazy things have gotten in or around the center. Downright dangerous at times even. Prostitutes, pimps and druggies or drug dealers hanging around with the kids that live here. Yeah it does bother me that the center has to be associated with this element of society. Don't even get me started on all the fights that happen here with the youth and staff who have been assaulted. Folks already have a negative view of the lgbt community. These things don't help and having this place here in this area makes it a hotspot for craziness. In my honest opinion there should be a fence around the building and in a perfect world we'd have several police officers working HERE in the building with us 24/7 along with a crisis counselor individual. Probably a nurse on staff as well. Is it a money thing that we don't have these things? When I look around me and I see all the rich and powerful lgbt people with their expensive clothes, nice cars and big houses none of that makes any sense. Make it make sense. 

I've been thinking hard about quitting here. Really hard. The pay is good and the benefits are off the chain but the level of stress associated with some of the things I  deal with are working my nerves to the point where...well I can feel its taking a toll on me. Its time to go. Been working on my projects so thats a good thing. Been playing the lotto and trying to save money while trying to think where can I go to get away from the madness. When I first came to LA I didn't really understand why people walk away from good paying jobs and move out into the country to live in a little cabin but now I totally get it. In all honesty I don't know that I will ever feel "alright" but it is not good running around all the time in fight or flight mode because your environment won't allow you a moment to relax. Even at home sometimes I come under attack by neighbors. Its not as intense as it used to be but its still there. Almost as if to remind me they are still here and because they are unhappy or unable to move on so be damned if they let me properly heal. (Why not simply focus on living the best life they can with the time they have instead of focusing on me?) People are something else. Everytime I think about my stuff getting stolen here or the asshole who stole my shit in Detroit back in 2018 and all the things I have endured these last three years it is a bit much to take in. It does not escape me that there are people out here dealing with things that would probably keep me awake at night yet these scars on my brain might never completely heal. My nerves are shot to the point it may have given me conditions that prevent me from ever having emotionally satisfying relationships with anyone. Am I really not relationship material or did I just "become" from messing with fucked up individuals until the camels back broke? Its a question I'm asking a lot these days. 

Been doing some research and it seems I have a rare(?) condition. Luckily after poking around I found others online in forums talking about this shit. The condition is where you unconsciously or uncontrollably watch others with peripheral vision. I honestly don't know what the hell this shit is or why it happens but its something I've struggled with since I was a youngin. Sometimes I wish I could wear those blinders like horses or funky glasses like Spiderman because it feels like I am processing information around me too much and too fast to properly focus and that is why I struggle to relax around others. I mean folks can feel it and it makes them uncomfortable. I've noticed some things though like if I am playing a really intense game and someone is near it gets harder for me to focus on what I'm doing because maybe I am hyper focused on EVERYTHING. Years ago when I went to apply for a job I remember a question on the application asked me to describe everthing happening in the room around me and I did describe EVERYTHING down to a tee. I did. No exaggeration here and I never heard back from the company because I figured I scared them? In hindsight now I realize this "superpower" like any other can be problematic without control. So how then do I control it? Funky Spiderman glasses? Sometimes the easiest way to solve a problem is to do nothing because its something you've had to deal with for so long it is "the new normal" or a readily available or practical solution isn't forthcoming. 

Sony got hacked the other day. Ransomware they call it I guess. Not sure if they paid but its not in the news anymore and the CEO for PlayStation announced his retirement after 30 years. Coincidence? Was there something damning in those 6000 files? Also, some former Ubisoft execs got arrested for sexual harassment allegations. A few years ago someone at Activision got in trouble for that. Its so crazy when I think about that. People working for a videogame company getting in trouble for sexual shit. Then again there's an unhealthy amount of toxic behavior in this community. Has been for years. Thats why Microsoft, Sony, Nintendo and other companies have had to invest so much in programs to protect online gamers from harassment or cheaters. What a mess we've made of things eh?

The Sasquatch animated short is moving along as well as my comic book projects and the soft reboot of my SonsofLegend webseries. There was an actor I really wanted to work with but he ghosted me and stopped returning my phone calls so I had to replace him. There was a cool actor who had responded to an earlier ad I'd placed on Craigslist for a voice actor. I liked how he looked and presented himself. A humble, educated and accomplished actor with plenty of talent can bring alot to a project. He'd be playing the role of Karter who is the son of Devin (The nephillim main character of SOL) Damon who plays "Devin" has been with me since my very first SOL project which was a teaser! He was more than happy to come back to reprise his role. The script for SonofLegend is done but it dawned on me I need to go back to make some key changes to make the story center more on Devin as he struggles to launch his unique reality tv show that trains wannabe superheroes. In the past for some reason this aspect of the concept was glossed over. Also, I don't wanna have so many characters running around because it bogs the story down. Sasquatch And The Mythology Sisterhood (my replacement for the property I lost ownership of Daughters Of Legend) was to be the relaunch of my SonsOfLegend universe yet I decided I'll go the route of relaunching SOL first and then bring in "The Squatch" afterwards. The cartoon will be my first SOL related project to launch though unless it takes longer to put together than the first episode of SOL. The first SOL episode could be pilot I suppose but I dunno. The length isn't something I have decided yet. If its to actually be considered a real short film with meat on its bones I think at least 15 minutes is ideal. I think I can set up a good story while introducing the concept and getting folks intriqued about what will happen next in 15 minutes. Considering the attention span of many these days you really don't wanna go longer than that. 15 minutes can fit on Youtube, Instagram and Facebook and an edited version can run on TikTok. Twitter can have the trailer. As was my plan from the VERY beginning of all this I wanna do a few episodes of four webseries...SonsofLegend,Sasquatch and The Mythology Sisterhood,Sins Of Legend and DragonManx then bring everything together in a full length film. That was my plan but it was derailed because my investor at the time and other parties who agreed with him didn't share or understand my vision. I spoke with a director yesterday who has equipment and he seemed interested enough in the SOL concept to ask for the script. I really hope he takes the job so we can get this ball rolling as I have been away from filmmaking for too long. I realize this is something dear to me. It just makes me feel more alive doing this shit you know? Thinking about relationships and the troubles of the world fall to the wayside when I can see a film project coming together.

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 So I guess this is the new normal...people urinating on the property here and getting verbally assaulted by people (those who live here and otherwise) also theres the matter of tension with folks who work with me or in other departments. Its not wonder my nerves are shot and I have such a hard time relaxing. Some random nutcase outside started yelling at me as I walked to the entrance to a stairwell to start my break. It was loud and embarrasing and I think this same individual tried to punk me a few weeks ago. So instead of going on my way I simply stopped smiling and said I'm still here. They walked away though. Meanwhile the folks gathered said nothing but looked on in amusement. Well one person said "We live here" I asked "Who was that?" No response. Time for me to get out of here. In other news "The artist formerly known as Mr. Grey eyes" broke off things between us earlier. Maybe he somehow sensed it was coming because we didn't talk the other day. I have really been dreading having "the talk" and now its all done. Nothing left to do but move on. It was for the best and as much as I liked him the truth is we were not compatible. Perhaps I'm not compatible with anyone on this planet. I'm starting to wonder. Still theres so much I have to do. Maybe in this life I just don't have time for relationships or dating anymore.

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 Its been a crazy week so far but things have calmed down in a most surprising way. Particularly with the co-worker I was not getting along with. We actually got into it the other night but tonight it was as if he were a different peson. Dude offered me pizza last night and I guess pizza is one of my weaknesses. Even if it had ham on it. (I'm only eating mostly seafood and veggie or fruit things these days) He insisted I take 3 slices so I ate one and I'm bringing the other two slices home for maybe dinner today. I actually eat dinner when I get home nowadays. So last night was a cool night. No fighting or crazy folks hanging around causing trouble. The other night is a different story. There was a fight and then some guy was trying to taser people and another dude was throwing water on him from a water bottle. I watched the whole surreal ordeal unfold on the video cameras. Its something the stuff we witness here. I am still talking with my friend from Botswana. Formerly Mr. Grey Eyes. He shut me down about the nickname because he said it was something that caused him discomfort. But that was just me being affectionate in my own way. Thing is in all honesty the flame has kinda gone out for me anyway and we will have that "I think we need to just be friends" talk soon. Maybe today. We have nice conversations and all but there is no romance. I think because he was single for 10 years that part of him is just submerged in some way. Its nice havig someone to talk to daily who actually notices and appreciates you but I just don't have those feelings and I do feel bad about having to let him down you know? Meanwhile Captain Liberia still calls me and says I just dropped him because he is seeing this woman even though they rarely meet up and she lives out of state. There was a time I was really quite smitten with Jon but like 99% of the time it felt one-sided and after really thinking back on all those time we had together I realize it WAS one-sided. Tired of giving energy to people I have to pursue. I can't even really recall a time someone I thought was the shit paid that kind of attention to me. Really messes with your self esteem let me tell you. Makes you start to doubt your self worth and then folks see it and it really makes them not wanna be with you. Its a crazy cycle. Mr. Ninja and i have not spoken in months now. Sometimes I see him on my way out and we sort of acknowledge each other yet never speak and its weird we are acting as if we don't know each other. My guess is who ever he's giving it to on a regular basis is very important so the proper way he deals is to pretend I don't exist. Good for him I guess. The whole situation is so strange and I don't even know how to feel to be truthful. I never did anything wrong other than really care for dude yet I can take some comfort in the observation we were never compatible. There was some sexual attraction then...well I suppose it fizzled. Hard for me to maintain focus when one gets the idea they are not wanted. So its true you can get over anything in time and the heart can heal but it does take awhile. Life must go on. Theres a part of me that would like the concept of being in a relationship yet at this stage in my life its something I could do without if it just never happened again you know? I'm more invested in my comic book projects these days. There are a few film projects in production and the animated short is moving along. Outside of these passions as well as family and friends everything else seems like a distraction. 

Speaking of my projects I was trying to rent a room hare at work to do a rehearsal next week for the SonsofLegend promo short I'm filming before this year is out. But the staff hasn't responded since I sent a message yesterday. They changed the whole process of requesting a space so I'm not even sure they saw my request form you have to fill out online. Meanwhile the anthology comic Argo is doing which features my "DragonManx" character is about to have its Kickstarter campaign launched soon. Nerds With Badges may be getting at long last a new episode sooner than later. Was gonna order some new shirts to give my guests. That can get expensive but some folks have asked for the shirts. Maybe I should look into getting some NWB apparel made on a grander scale? Something for thought. The Sasquatch cartoon is getting its own comic book rendition and at the rate the artist works it will be done in a few more months. Its only gonna cost me like $80.00 a page. Sounds cheap but when you consider all the other things I'm pouring money into. Investments. Rent. Food. (Uber/LYFT!) Streaming apps and games or comics...well its that time for me to cut back especially since I have to start looking into storage space plus I gotta get a root canal and glasses. If I take too much time to dwell on all this shit the complexities of my life can seem overwhelming. Thank the gods I have outlets.🥲

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-To Indiana Jones's new soundtrack via Spotify-

I took a few sick days off work mainly because I have been more stressed out than usual and health-wise wise I noticed a few things that have alarmed me. I have lost weight and over the past few days I was feeling some kind of heartburn-type sensation and an over all impression as if my body was fighting off something. Thankfully I've managed to keep busy creatively so this definitely helps lift my spirits from that cloud of funkiness thats been floating around over me these last few months. It has been really rough to climb out of this dark space let me tell you. And as skittish as I am about dating now (since Mr. Ninja who turned out to be a colossal mistake and I had to accept "The good Captain" has his eyes set on a woman who he's likely been seeing since the time he was in LA) Mr. Grey Eyes has managed to become a consistent fixture of my life. Mr. Grey Eyes is a cool individual I connected with via a dating app. He's originally from Botswana and he's a father of two who is very successful/accomplished in his professional life. We do have nice conversations and I think he's cute as well as masculine that delightful island fashion which is VERY different from how most black men from the US behave. I guess to describe it would be a manner of masculinity almost boyish but certainly not womanly which is a trait many of the guys from here seem to adopt as "gay" behavior. I'm just not into men who act like women. No harm no foul. I understand why this occurs and I get its a part of the culture but its not entirely representative of all of our culture. But getting back to stress I realize I have to be very careful about letting a dude into my life and now might not be the ideal time to do it. But when is the ideal time? Its definitely nice having a man in your life who bothers to call you daily and who makes plans to spend vacation time with you. Its great to feel valued and...well its not hard not to wanna go back to being treated like trash when you have someone in your life who appreciates your energy. I'm dreaming frequently nowadays which means at least my mind is on the mend. Things are starting to get busy with the creative stuff. The cartoon is coming along. My comic projects are nearing the finish line and production is about to start on my new relaunch of "Sins Of Legend" as a webseries. Also I am putting in more time checking in on family because I realize the time I have with these people well its valuable and something to be treasured for all the obvious reasons. My stepmom is dealing with some illnesses and all my parents are getting on up in the years. Time is just flying by and I can't keep staying away because I've not lived up to ceratin expectations of self. You know I wanted to one day be able to provide more for all of them. Sometimes it hurts knowing I can't but it was never something they asked for. Sometimes we just put undue stress on ourselves trying to live up to an ideal we think others want of us. Sometimes we can get so caught up on what could be or some other nonsense we overlook what we do have right in front of us all the time. Sometimes a powerful sadness grips me when I think of how much time I have wasted and I wish I could go back to do some things differently. I wish I hadn't pushed some folks clear out of my life. I'm not sure if I can go back but what I do know is I have time now to work on these things. I guess all we really can do is do the best we can with what we have. Living in the now is indeed very important in life.

The last few weeks at work have been pretty crazy. After repeatedly clashing with a co-worker I lost some privileges. No laptop at the desk anymore. I gotta come right back after breaks and I gotta be careful about eating at the desk even though I never make a mess. Its crazy that I got in trouble because someone else was doing things they were not supposed to and I ended up getting punished when I ultimately had no choice but to go to the higher ups for help whenb it became a bully type situation. Just more reinforcement they don't really care and I need to focus on getting out of here. A staff member told me (when I asked her how she deals with a difficult co-worker) that this is something we all have to deal with and just keep in mind I am not going to be here forever. Some other folks are but NOT me. Still I am looking at possibly going to work for another security company sooner than later because I miss having the freedom to work on creative projects at work.

-To Be Continued-