The Man Who Ate Curses

 I didn't come to work yesterday. Needed a mental health day. Kinda wish I'd stayed home tonight as well. One of these kids went off on me for "touching him" with the wand when I had to scan him for weapons. Some blonde, somewhat effeminate white boy who has always given me an air of hostility and indifference. It's weird how crappy people can be when you've done nothing to them. I have to remind myself at times some of these people have come up the hard way, and many of the lgbt youth here have mental problems. I mean, I have my own issues, but I've never let that be an excuse to be nasty towards anyone. Some people are just mean-spirited, and it blows my mind anyone would want to be with them. Still, they say there's someone for everyone. There's a few more generally unpleasant folks here. One is a very tall guy who likes to dress up like a woman. He's loud and one of the other guards said he's just trying to act "black," I guess, the stereotypical manner society depicts us. Some mean-spirited people seem to actually have a caring heart and they can draw folks to them because they have untapped leadership potential. One such person is no longer here due to a big fight that happened weeks ago where they played a role in beating up someone outside. It was such a crazy scene with cops everywhere and a helicopter circling the area. We've had way too many such incidents here and this is one of the reasons I take as many days off as I do. It's also why I wake up sometimes with my heart racing. Yeah, I know working at this place has traumatized me but the plan is to quit next year around the end of May. That will be my 20th anniversary working at Arkham Asylum. My nerves are shot, and my body needs a break. Also its become obvious I'm gonna need to travel to see Ojeka in Nigeria since Visas are frozen. Things have gotten serious with us and we need to spend some actual physical time in each other's presence to see what kind of chemistry we have. In other news I've been focusing on some new artistic projects. I've some good ideas honestly. Maybe one of them will get me out of security this year. Lets us pray. Now should I write an incident report on what happened with the dudette who doesn't want to be touched? Shit, I don't even like to be touched, come to think of it. 

The Man Who Ate Curses

 I the strange and sometimes not alright but mostly always driven supporting character of my own life has (have?) returned. I can't believe its been since August the last time I posted anything here. Alot has happened needless to say but I will try my best to recall it all to catch you up. I'm still talking to the cute guy from Nigeria. Being respectful of his privacy I'll just call him "The Bear". The Bear was ina pretty bad situation when we frist started talking because he'd come from a situation where he lost everything and at first I thought he was trying to scam me but now we've made it official and we've entered this struggle to get him here into the US but since Trump has banned folks from coming here from a bunch of other countries (Nigeria included) well things are not looking so great. Let me tell you it is so crazy living in a world where two people who want to be together can't be together yet...well Trump happened. Looks like it will be another 3 years of his craziness. At least the Supreme court stopped his tariffs. Meanwhile MTV doesn't exist anymore. P Diddy is still in jail and the Epstein files are still just as mysterious to the public.   Folks are scared to death of AI and the hate for it is insane. I got roasted so bad on Instagram after using AI to doctor a picture of Wonder Man I no longer bother to read any comments on thread because we got some really unhinged individuals out here on social media. I mean I knew how toxic guys are from playing videogames (I 99% of the time don't bother to use chat during gaming sessions these days) but I have never experienced that kind of unwavering HATE that came literally every five minutes in nasty comments tearing me apart because I posted one picture. I asked where was the energy or acknowledgment for all the other things I posted over the years...artwork from original artists I have paid thousands of dollars to produce work in art, literature or film? Of course crickets chirping was the response. I think its just easier for many humans to be be nasty to each other and alot of folks will jump on something because its trendy. Its trendy to hate AI now because of this crazy notion it will take over the world I guess. I mean don't get me wrong jobs are being affected and lost and some folks are abusing this stuff and using it for all the wrong reasons but doesn't that happen with pretty much anything? Some will always find a way to exploit or misuse any type of power. 

Nerds With Badges just wrapped a new episode a few weeks ago so I'm still doing that. I found a new partner to do the episodes with. He's a straight brother from Colorado. He's an ex-Marine who lived in Japan for a a couple of years and he's big into anime like me. Well maybe not quite like me. I recruited him at an Anime convention last year. He's cool. Kinda edgy and weird in his own way. sometimes I worry about him but he's like me a nerd with a badge. A security guard big into nerd culture so he's my people. I think he's in it for the long haul even as we are still working out the kinks in this podcast. Thing is I gotta figure out a way to make some money from all this shit because I am so over this 9-5 hustle. I wish I could get all the other security guards together who feel the same way and start a business with them. Well I suppose that is the idea with NWB. I'm planning to leave this job in2027 so I'm trying to save and focus more onprojects and potential business opportunities. The Sasquatch cartoon is done but I think Ima use AI to improve its quality. I have a new comic that will be out soon and speaking of AI I have been using it to improve and introduce some new characters or storylines. It is a useful tool. Especially since I don't have to spend so much money hiring others to do as much art or designs for me. I'm actually using AI the right way. Improving ideas and concepts. Not just being lazy and having it do ALL the work. I've come up with some really cool stuff and I gotta work on publications since my current comic publisher won't touch anything utilizing AI.  Also regarding AI Microsoft laid off a lot of folks and companies are buying so many chips for AI that right now theres a big shortage which has driven costs up so much Sony, Microsoft and Steam are delaying their upcoming game consoles. And yes GTA 6 was delayed AGAIN. A new Resident Evil game releases this week (Already pre-ordered it for my Xbox Series S) I was thinking about upgrading to a Series S but Xbox,Nintendo and Sony have raised prices on their hardware, effectively pricing out some gamers. I hurried up and got a Switch Lite for The Bear because I know more price increases are coming. Yes I am trying to turn him into a content creator. I think this could help him out financially. He's good-looking and smart and he has a lot to say. Just needs an audience and hot gamers are...well hot items. They are. 

I had a surprise visit from family that kinda went wrong because I was sick and my sister just came to my apartment knocking on my door like the police and I was half asleep from a sleeping pill and didn't allow her and my niece to come inside my cluttered apartment. I am honestly still alittle pissed she did that.  I love her but please if you are visiting call in advance and don't just pop up. Its disrespectful and I would not do that. Especially to someone who works nights. Ugh. 

Back to The Bear. I have sent him some things and provided money when I could but the writing seems on the wall that if we are gonna be able to spend time together before Trump leaves office I may have to go to him. Truthfully I have thought of leaving the US for awhile yet Nigeria is having so many problems right now we would need to meet up somewhere else. The plan before Trump blocked visas was tohave him come here but now any way he can come here legally is paused. The organization ICE has really made life difficult because they have been rounding up immigrants left and right. So much we even had training on how to deal with them if they come here to the LGBT Center. They have actually been chill these past couple of months due to some controversy surrounding fatal encounters with activists. Nigeria is dealing with some tension with religious fanatics and crooked politicians as well as a push by folks to get those resources. trump actually sent troops over there to help train fighters last week. The Bear says we can use this situation to get him some form of asylum. We'll see.