So they shut down the 7/11 down the street from my job now at 11:30pm every night now. I have worked in the center for almost 17 years and this is the first time this has happened. 7/11 is usually open all night so now we have to go somewhere else for late night snacks or coffee. Supposedly this happened because of all the craziness that tends to occur in this area. Prostitutes and drug dealers hanging around. People fights. People stealing from the store. I myself witnessed a man chasing another man around in the store stabbing him with a screwdriver. A clerk was recently jumped and beat up by a bunch of folks. Staff have been assaulted. The straw that broke the proverbial camels back (allegedly) was the glass to the store being broken due to an attempt to snatch the ATM from inside. All this is to me is more freedoms we are losing or things being taken away because of the actions of nutcases. On the way in to work I had an interesting conversation with my LYFT driver who is from Japan and he was telling me about how in Japan mentally ill people are just taken off the street and placed in mental facilities. Also homeless are placed in programs to give them jobs or training. Crime happens but it is not like here and the law enforcement over there do not play. But then again folks are more civil over there and as one of my supervisors put it people are taught from an early age to actually give a shit about each other. Guns are not allowed either. Not saying Japan is perfect but man I am so envious of folks who live there away from the madness that happens here. Honestly I really have been thinking alot about moving out of the states. Just don't know when but I need a change so I'm not walking around in fight or flight mode literally ALL the time. They say stress releases some crazy chemicals in your body and over time its a silent killer. That build up. I've lost weight. I feel tired so much of the time and there's this feeling of oppression that often affects my ability to focus or be creative. I think the rejection of a certain co-worker did some major damage that affected me on such a deep spiritual level it spilled out into the real world because I never just straight up said I was done with love and relationships and REALLY meant it. Really mean it. That shit put me in such a deep space I don't ever wanna go back to that again. Ladies and gentlemen we have found Sergio's "kryptonite". Yet what good is one who knows how to love in a world where everyone has forgotten how to love? I dunno...is everyone else just as scared to love as I am or did Thanos cast a spell to keep us from reproducing? This shit is real. People will walk away from a relationship-oriented truly good person who they can build something with and run to straight up garbage or unattainable folks or people they have no business messing around with because the very idea or concept of something pure scares them shitless or I think its just easier to have disposable rendevous as opposed to letting someone in enough so you and team up to overcome your issues. So sometimes it really is THEM and not YOU my friend. I am a dinosaur. I am like Captain America now...a man trapped in a time that is both equally unfamiliar and unsettling. Maybe its been this way since the moment I was birthed.
Microsoft finally acquired Activision/Blizzard/King and I am soooo happy. I mean its gonna be cool having all those cool games available on GamePass and even better having access to them via the cloud on ANY device that exists. Can't really take advantage of GamePass here at work though since they block cloud access unless one has their own personal hotspot. Something I have considered investing in. Speaking of games this is a big week for gaming. A new Mario. A new Spiderman game. A new Sonic game. Even a new King Kong game. Its not very good though. Definitely needed some more time in the over to bake. I tried to record some of my gameplay footage for King Kong but the stupid recorder didn't record so we'll try again later. Hopefully, I'll be able to get some Sonic gameplay later as well because it has been taking forever to download and update for some reason. Sometimes I wonder if its because I want to play it so bad. Spiderman 2 is like 100 gigs on Playstation 5 so I gotta pre-install it starting today if theres any chance at all to play it this coming weekend. I hate that you have to open the PS5 to add more storage. At least Xbox lets you add external storage even though its expensive as hell. Might do a Nerds With Badges episode to discuss the new games coming out. Did actually film an episode like a week ago to talk about my new Chromebook Plus and it did feel good to be back doing something cool and creative like that. Really I wanted to test out that 1080 video camera the CB+ has!
Had an interesting dream yesterday involving me taking a bus then falling asleep and ending up somewhere unfamiliar and taking a photo on my phone of an unusual looking building. Seems I may have been on my way to school which there was some dread about. Over the last few years I have been dreaming about school. These don't feel like good dreams at all because I was feeling apprehension of being there or some worries about school work or tests. School was particularly tough for me. Never fit in really and there were some bad people who went out of their way to thoroughly traumatize me for their own personal gain I guess. So yeah I don't want to have any dreams about being anywhere near a shool. Ugh. Well, an ambulance is outside now so I gotta cut this entry short and see what the hell is going on...
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