The Evil That People Do...
Some guy in thailand went off on a bunch of folks in a school. He killed like 20 kids then went home, killed his wife and child then shot himself in the head. He survived.
Some politicians of the Hispanic persuasion recently got in trouble for getting caught on tape saying some decidedly un-American things about black folks and Jewish folks. Can't we all just get along?
Some folks have been going around stabbing people in NY and folks will just walk up on people then sucker punch them for no reason.
Apparently its now in fashion (with facility residents and their "friends") outside my job on the streets here to get together and fight with crowds of other people either observing or "helping out".
I posted a poster for a cool show that I like on Netflix on my IG and a security guard who used to seem cool trolled me with a comment "Thats the worst show I have ever seen in my life" I responded that it seems mean spirited to come on a persons post and say something negative when clearly they like the topic and he removed his comment. The other day when I asked him if he would like to be on my show I got a nasty response "I'm not really interested man" I blocked him and unfollowed dude on FB because folks be trippin and I ain't got the time for it.
A few times here at work folks piss on the property outside. They act incredulous when asked not to do it. Then theres the girl who walked past me tonight gazing at me out the corner of her eyes saying "Say something bitch. Say something" over and over as she walked by. I came down hard on myself for not saying anything but i think at the time I was too shocked that that was actually happening to me. Another security guard told me she was practically naked outside one night and that if she had to share a room with her she would be scared to sleep cuz this chick be talkin to herself. (I swear that sometimes I really do think some folks have demons inside them. Fuck a mental illness. Thats not always the "why" I'm convinced)
A guy at my job refuses to speak to me. This has been going on for a long time and my instincts tell me I need to be careful because I have observed some folks who have frequent contact with him have started to behave strangely towards me when they were initially friendly. Its not my business what other people think about me but it says something about someone who sits, watches, plots pointing out your imperfections. I'm just saying that shit takes alot of energy. It does catch up with you when you put out negative energy and do stupid shit. Ask me how I know. I guess we are all stupid at some point in our lives before we evolve. Well some of us evolve. If my grandmother was here she would say "Leave it in the Lords hands and pray for him" So I will.
Somebody was using my debit card for a dating service so I was forced to change my card number. That shit caused me a gang of frustration let me tell you. But at least whoever was hacking my Youtube has stopped. For the moment anyway.
Sometimes when I think of bad things that have happened to me...bad things others have done to me I think about this guy in NY (I'll just call him "Randy") He hacked up phlegm in my hat and handed it back to me. He made it his business to extra bully me for standing up to him when he picked on another kid. I recall being kicked by this guy named...I actually think I forgot his name. Lol. But "Ronny" picked on me and pushed me down some stairs. I fought back and we both got so tired we walked out of the school together spent. He later told me a relative told him to be my friend which is what I kept yelling while he was pummeling me. I remember getting smacked in the head repeatedly by this big boned chick named "Everly". I remember fighting one bully Black Frank and a Puerto Rican Frank came to my rescue by kicking Franks ass. I have never forgotten that.
I remember when I first came to LA and was staying in a shelter someone went in my suitcase and took a bunch of my stuff. Back in 2018 a dude who was later caught stole nearly everything I'd brought with me on a trip to what used to be my favorite getaway. The authorities gave me a $250.00 check but I've not been back to Detroit since.
Somebody took my computer charger from my job one day when I left it upstairs on a table.
Somebody took one of my favorite mugs I left in the microwave at work. It was a mug I'd bought at the Disney Store in Times Square back in the early 2000's.
I called the alarm company here at work one night and they put me on hold for a Loooong time. I hung up and called back and got connected instantly and wondered had the operator put me on hold for a long time because I told her I was calling from the LGBT center?
I have been having trouble unlocking my door for awhile now and am convinced its because someone tried to get into my apartment. Or maybe they succeeded and that might be why my neighbors are always watching me come and go and constantly checking on their apartment at all times during the night. Maybe they saw something???
Kanye why did you wear that shirt? I mean come on man. I love you but what's your agenda? What are you thinking? How do you REALLY feel about race relations? And finally...are you OKAY?
Two guys tried to rob me in NY when I was a we lad and the police promptly arrived. The cops put me in the car and we drove a few blocks before they caught up to the guys.
When did rapping become such a dangerous profession? Oh I forgot working in the music profession has been a dangerous profession for Black folks for awhile now. Why is that though? Can somebody explain that to me? All that money and power but ya'll don't really know how to use it plus where are our leaders to show us the way? Bought and sold? Or they don't give a damn. We need us some more Malcolm X's and Martin Luther Kings up in this bitch.
A man took a swing at me one night while trying to force his way into the other building I used to work in for the center. He hit me in the chest and my foot shot out instinctively to kick him down the front steps of the door.
One nasty trashy resident told me one night when I held the door open that they didn't have to say thank you to me for "doing my job" So holding the door open for someone is my job? Since when?
Alot of black and brown folks are behind bars. Alot of us have bad dealings with cops and folks get all riled up. They wanna "defund the police" but if theres no cops whos' gonna protect the citizens? Why don't we as a community more actively police our own neighborhoods? When you do or say nothing its almost like saying "its okay the way things are" but its clearly not if we can't even walk to the store in safety in our own neighborhoods. Theres always money for wars and to send to other countries. Theres always money for your gazillion dollar bank accounts while your fellow human beings are starving or need medicine or whatever else but you can't be bothered right because its not your problem right? I know some animals are scary and nature makes some folks uncomfortable but these things are important and this is something we need to think more about. Stop turning a blind eye because guess what? We all have an obligation to walk the walk. Be about that life.
I remember being scared to go to school. I hated going there and I skipped classes ALOT. I was...am different and was made to suffer because of it. As mean and crazy as some of these folks in my communities are to me (and some are downright horrible) I can't let myself forget so much of the time hurt people hurt people. They do. We do.
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