Confessions of a sad superhero book 79

Listening to the "Loose Ends" R&B station on Pandora. 

The last few weeks have been interesting to say the least. First off I wanted to make an effort not to come here all the time when there was bad news or I was upset about something. I dunno. It seems thats how it is most of the time so I waited until I felt a bit more balanced. Been dreaming alot lately too. Not that i'm complaining. The last dream however was much like an action suspense horror thingie. I was in a gas station and it was being held up. The whole thing played out all the way to the end with the main antagonist getting shot in the groin by a sheriff who responded to calls for help from a young boy who was being attacked. I kid you not. This was one of the most realistic dreams I have ever had. I wish i could wake up and the last two years were all a horror suspense thriller. Anyway I am in the process of editing the botched Nerds With Badges episode fragments. I think I can piece together something serviceable but the files are sooo big and since they have done something to the internet here (due to the kids hacking shit and almost getting the center sued) its taking forever. as it is I can't get online to play Mario Kart matches online and Vampire The Masquerade Bloodhunt refuses to even load the title screen. So there is no way to play offline apparently without an internet connection. I suspect some sort of firewall has been put up now. This happened right when I came back from my Halloween Florida trip to see Mommy and them.

I didn't do anything over the Thanksgiving holiday. Just rested and played games. Watched movies. Some folks wanted to hang out but I wasn't really in the mood. Seems I barely have time for myself. Real time to just relax and enjoy the fruits of my labor. You know? Captain Liberia called but I have not bothered to respond. Theres this weird instinct that keeps telling me to stay away. Telling me not to waste anymore time on a raggamuffin who really ain't as into me as he'd have me believe at times. Its like he will let time go by and before it gets too long he will return to sink his hooks back in my brain matter. Thats what it feels like. Its like that song by the Supremes. You don't really love me you just keep me hanging on. I am working hard to get bro out of my system and this other guy from work seems into me but he's not really my type. I maybe could give him a friendship but I need to be tactful in letting him know I can't go there. I did say I was taking a break from dating and it just feels right right now. 

I did buy a few things for Black Friday. Got some crazy deals on a few games. Actually got up off my butt and went down to Gamestop to get the new Digimon game which was mad cheap for Black Friday. I actually did all my laundry and cleaned up a bit in my place. Its starting to look...well its starting to look almost like a place I would have someone stop thru for a visit. Almost. That old depression can really do a number on you. I think its safe to say I have bounced back from a very dark place. When you have enough time to yourself I think the mind can get a chance to heal itself from all the BS. BS from other people mostly I think. Speaking of BS I had a sparkling water stolen from the fridge at work just before we went on our four day break. I have two suspects really. I can't prove anything of course because people are sneaky as hell but mostly I am inclined to think it was a certain security guard I work with on certain days. I saw this person go in the kitchen and heard them rambling around in the fridge. When I asked them if they saw my drink they denied it but...whatever. The other suspect might be a person who was mad at me because I said something when they jumped up to go thru pastries left for the security dept after a guard said they were for us in front of them. I was like those are for the security guards. They were PISSED because they brought it up alot after and acted incredibly offended but I was like what do you think would happen if someone brought out food for your dept and I ran over like "OOOH let me see! Mine MINE MINE! SHARE!" So like I said two suspects. Was I wrong to check said individual? Whatever the case the end result is I know not to trust any of these bozos around here. Stealing from your co-workers or trying to be petty creates an unsafe environment especially when it can pit folks against each other. I keep expecting people to be noble and just I swear.

Irene Cara died over the holiday. She was a phenomenal artist and contributed greatly to my early teen years. She was only 63. Lady had/has an amazing voice. Very distinctive style too. Like a Mariah and Chante mix only without all those crazy high notes. Flashdance and Fame are two things I can't even imagine having grown up without.

Comic Con is this weekend. I might go with Sir Nathan of Palisades. (I always change Nathan's name to "Sir Nathan" of something. Its a running joke between us I suppose) I was considering doing another Nerds episode this weekend and somehow incorporating a Comic Con trek into it. Might have to film it myself though. No need to pay someone a small fortune to do something you can do yourself right? Its funny that more and more I am learning some of the things I have hired others to do for me I definitely could have done waaay better. It just takes time and practice...