I guess maybe its time to start thinking like Brian the security guard who used to ride the bus with me on my way home in the morning. Since there are so many weird and deranged folks riding the bus for free these days he walks all the way to the train station which you have to pay (so theres less crazies) or sometimes he just uses Uber/Lyft. Last night all the way to work on two buses I had to listen to two crazy guys talking lout to themselves. So loud they drowned out my music on my bluetooth headphones. Then tonight I got into an argument with a crazy lady talking loud to herself who called cursed at me and me a devil when I asked her why did she have to come over to where I was. When she kept saying I was a devil I asked her how could she know that and if she's actually seen one. She said yes and I told her to stop lying. For real. I mean I was just standing there waiting for the bus minding my business and here comes this loud talking looney. This is probably why so many folks drive here in LA and the homeless problem is becoming a very serious issue here. You see all the tents everywhere and the law enforcement are limited in what they can do or they just don't wanna be bothered. You see alot of deranged folks on the bus and much of the time they are not even wearing masks. My nerves are shot and I really needed to type this so I could calm down. I went to the store and stood in line for a long time so even though I left my house early I still got here later than usual and had to deal with drama on my way to work. If I had like ten grand saved up I would get the hell out of Cali because it is changing too much in ways I don't like. Not saying I ever really felt at home here you know? Next time a looney comes around me I'll just quietly move. Tonight I was feeling tired. Probably irratable and my energy possibly attracted or gave off some negativity. I think sometimes when I'm feeling a certain way it just opens me up to strange things happening. Could be the psychic protection fields are not functioning at full capacity or theres some subconscious altering of the environment going on. I am just full of theories about this stuff. Honestly though I don't even like to go out of my apt if I am feeling a certain way. I've said it before and I'll say it again....its becoming apparent much of the mental issues I have come from dealing with FUCKED up people. I can only wonder what my life would have been like without all the shit I've experienced at the hands of bullies negative small minded broken folks and all the other shit I've been thru. Then people have to spend the rest of their lives trying to "cure" themselves or find some inner peace so you won't become another babbling idiot walking around talking to yourself.
I almost forgot to mention I got this mysterious handwritten letter in the mail yesterday. The letter suggested I go to a website that had some bible scriptures which explains all the insane stuff going on in the world these days. The letter was addressed to me and seemed to have been mailed from Valencia Cali even though the return address was right down the street from me. So now I have a mystery on my hands. Sometimes my life really is alot like a movie or a tv show.
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