(To Duran Duran station on iheart Radio)
I called in sick last night. Really was feeling just drained and spiritually exhausted. Again. Still when your mind and body need it they will let you know its time to take a break. If only for a moment. I was able to do some soul searching and basically re-affirmed my goals. Got some things accomplished that I'd put off for awhile. Did my laundry. Two loads. Still have another load to do on my off days. Got my workplace medical insurance squared away after missing the deadline. Connected with my business partners on the Detector Pig cartoon. Its amazing how sometimes in life you can just get so caught up in surviving that everything else seems to fall to the wayside. I think that when your mind gets too overloaded it simply needs to take a moment to do a sort of reboot. Sometimes that moment lasts a loooooong time. In my case its been a year and some change. Heartbreak and life can hit hard. Add to the equation mental illnesses caused by stress and maybe genetic factors and well...I guess I can understand now fully why some folks disappear inside themselves sometimes. Sometimes folks be going through all kinds of shit in their lives and you just never know so like the saying goes...be kind. Sometimes it feels risky being kind though especially when I look around and see whats going on in the world around me.
Tonight I was asked to work at a different location and I am so glad they called me before I left my place. This place is heavily under construction and when I came in I found myself getting irritated because the construction crew was blasting spanish music. I think they put on music because it was so quiet since I was dealing with getting my work cams to work with a supervisor who was on the phone but man...I have so much appreciation for most music -except maybe opera- but this shit just sounds like carnival music to me and usually it doesn't bother me but I ended up blasting music back to try and drown it out and I can tell at some points we were kinda battling each other for musical dominance. One of the workers from another department told me she was leaving the company soon because of how far she has to travel at night and with no car she is often in potential danger. She gave me a banana and a croissant before she left. I've known her for a few years now and she's really cool. I think she's from Mexico. I feel really bad for her because she was telling me about how some homeless guys took her sneakers one morning as she was heading home. She was forced to go home with only her socks. I think she has been mugged a few times because one of the construction crew guys told me there have been a number of bad incidents which is whats leading to her quitting. The crime is getting insane and there are so many people walking the streets who should be locked up somewhere. Somewhere they can either get treatment or rehab so they can become contributing members of society. I have been watching some crazy videos on Youtube about crazy criminal encounters and although I am somewhat traumatized by a bad police encounter. I have newfound respect for what law enforcement has to deal with. In another life I think perhaps I was a cop...
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