Interview with the dark superhero book 1 Chapter 1 "Re-me" (Or The Man Who Ate Curses)

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I got up earlier than usual today. Dragged myself out of bed. Anxiety be damned and I washed some socks in the sink. Brushed my teeth. Showered then I called a LYFT totake a $26.00trip across town to do a wellness check on my friend who I dreamt about doing slapstick comedy in some theater earlier. No idea what that was all about. Been calling, texting and emailing this guy for a few days now. Worried because of the fires going on you know. He hasn't responded to me and its been over a week since he's been on social media. When I get to his crib there was no way to get in. No bell to ring because the door to his unit is locked behind a gate. Asked a few neighbors if anything was going on but all I discovered was everyone who'd evacuated returned Thursday. Everything in the apartment complex was eerily quiet. I was expecting a dog to come out after me as I wandered in the darkness like a spy out of some Jason Bourne film peeping through windows. Eventually I took a photo of me in the place and sent it via text so he'd know I was there at least then I booked.

Walked all the way from Laurel Canyon blvd (Its a long adventurous walk through the hood that is dark and quiet -in an unsettling way- suburbia till I got to sunset where I chose to dine at an Ihop. I was actually thinking it woulda been Denny's but it was Ihop. It felt strange yet familiar there dining on my own like in the old days when I'd go out more often. For much of those early days it was Louiszilla or Georgezilla accompanying me on those jaunts but in the years we've all gone our separate ways and I have become the lone wolf who rarely leaves his den unless its absolutely neccessary. Got some coffee with french vanilla creamer. Ordered the sampler and after fighting with my mini kindle which initially refused to read the micro SD card inside it; I browsed the web for a bit. Read about Nintendo Switch 2 leaks and its supposed reveal later this week. A waitress said what I suspect. "Leaks" are purposely put out to generate a buzz. Got into a cool conversation with a white lady who seemed to be a "Karen" at first as she was really being difficult and fussy with the staff over a particular meal she usually gets there for her son who's been coming there since he was a year old. He's 15 now. I told her about my wellness check adventure and she was very supportive as well as understanding of this peculiar situation I'd found myself in. We also talked about how fast it got dark outside. By the time I finished my meal it was around the time for me to come in to work so here I am. Called my father to let him know my trip was booked and fiddled with the settings on  my Lenovo Legion Go in an attempt to play Funko Fusion and really began  to understand why the Steam operating system is getting so popular with gaming devices these days. With Windows you gots ta update and install drivers. Steam is like a Nintendo or mostly any console experience. You turn the damn thing on and it just WORKS. What a concept! And tomorrow I will attempt more adventures. Laundry, grocery shopping and maybe if I'm not too lazy packing for my trip. 

Interview with the dark superhero book 1 Chapter 1 "Re-me" (Or The Man Who Ate Curses)

-THE MAN WHO ATE CURSES-

My name is Sergio Wadell Willis. I am the 55 year old son of Charles and Vera but blood of deities runs in these veins as well. Its why I like Stevie have clearer vision than most. I'm also a writer and an artist. Which means basically I feel EVERYTHING all the time. Well, most of the time anyway. Comic books, movies, music, videogames and my artistic abilities help drown out the noise of living in a world that has grown increasingly complex and confusing. Sometimes this world is disturbing and unsettling and my mind fights to stay reasonably sane even though it is stung with the pangs of countless trauma. Yes, it is a true miracle I have made it this far. This is my story.

Los Angeles is burning right now. Its a terrible tragedy. No one really seems to know where the fires came from or exactly who started them but 24 lives have been lost and so many have lost EVERYTHING. I have been affected because I'm employed in the Hollywood area. My place of business has to a degree reduced staff. Some of my friends or associates have been displaced. I recall a week ago the winds were blowing quite hard outside so this was certainly the worst of times for any fires to start. The wind factor has made controlling the fires difficult. Last I heard they have it contained 30%. I live pretty far from the fires thank the powers that made me. I cannot even imagine trying to hurriedly pack what I love most into a few boxes in the face of such a disaster. As it is I still wonder how many of us are really prepared for a big disaster. Who has enough food and water to last and for how long? 

Some truly unpleasant and misguided individuals are saying this is all God's wrath. They said the same when there were earthquakes. Its insane having to share a planet with fools like this. Someone called them trolls. I suppose they are. People who say crazy things (whether or not they actually believe it) in order to induce negative feelings in others. Meanwhile I still did my podcast Friday. My trip home this month is still happening and production on my cartoon continues. Production I imagine will also resume this month on my "soft reboot" of SonsOfLegend. There is a peculiar numbness in the fibre of me regarding these concepts of love,dating or romance. It is strange that something I once yearned so much for now seems something "another person wanted" I mean to say a recent heartbreak appears to have submerged much of these desires. Maybe one day as Oleta put it "A wounded heart will heal" but for now its in the past and so many other things are far more important. 

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 Dreaming again...

#1 Was in an amusement park. Seems I was with a family or group of friends maybe. I got lost or separated and after some women tried to help me (including an older Hispanic woman who seemed flirtatious) I ended up locked into a lab I managed to squeeze thru a door into.

#2 My sister Fatish was skating down this foggy street that sloped until she somehow fell down into an abyss. She dropped her cellphone and I  heard her below yelling so I aksed someone to go get a rope but some people who might have been nuns helped Fatisha up. She seemed unhurt. (I think seeing Nosferatu the other day influenced this dream)

#3 This penguin looking ceature was bouncing around these multicolored marbles as some other creatures(?) pursued him. He broke one of the marbles in half to consume something that made him stronger. Also an owl was there in a hole in a tree and it seems I saw a package arrive at my apt. Maybe I was anticipating the arrival of the new internet device being shipped from AT&T. 

#4 A cute Hispanic guy who looked like an Uber/Lyft driver was walking around singing a song about dying...I am sure he said Sergio you will die but this was actually mixing up with a song that was playing on the radio from KROQ at that time I was sleeping. The song was about dying. Sort of upbeat but it had a heaviness to it like the song Welcome to The Black Parade does.

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Been dreaming again lately. Of course most of this stuff tends to fade unless I jump up and jot it down really quickly. 

Yesterday...

Was crying because my Grandma Mary's dog "Killer" died and a little boy came to comfort me. Also a young girl came to put a blanket on me. I told Fatisha that the reason I hate going to funerals is because I fall apart. She told me it was how we let go or something to that effect. Then it seems like I was seeing a coffin which was reddish and kinda futuristic and ancient looking at the same time. I saw them lowering it into the ground and I was feeling dread wondering how I was going to hold it together after I was buried down there in the dark. I envisioned trying to hold my breath as I dug up through earth. Seems I said animals are like angels and the rest has faded from my memory.

Dec 15th

Was at a flea market type setting and was talking with these two little white kids. Both boys. At one point I scolded one because he was ripping the cover of two. I stopped him before he could complete his damage on one by snatching it and this startled him causing him to jump. 

Nov 27th

Bigfoot trying to get me and some white kid who ran into a bathroom closing the door to escape.

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 (To Duran Duran station on iheart Radio)

I called in sick last night. Really was feeling just drained and spiritually exhausted. Again. Still when your mind and body need it they will let you know its time to take a break. If only for a moment. I was able to do some soul searching and basically re-affirmed my goals. Got some things accomplished that I'd put off for awhile. Did my laundry. Two loads. Still have another load to do on my off days. Got my workplace medical insurance squared away after missing the deadline. Connected with my business partners on the Detector Pig cartoon. Its amazing how sometimes in life you can just get so caught up in surviving that everything else seems to fall to the wayside. I think that when your mind gets too overloaded it simply needs to take a moment to do a sort of reboot. Sometimes that moment lasts a loooooong time. In my case its been a year and some change. Heartbreak and life can hit hard. Add to the equation mental illnesses caused by stress and maybe genetic factors and well...I guess I can understand now fully why some folks disappear inside themselves sometimes. Sometimes folks be going through all kinds of shit in their lives and you just never know so like the saying goes...be kind. Sometimes it feels risky being kind though especially when I look around and see whats going on in the world around me. 

Tonight I was asked to work at a different location and I am so glad they called me before I left my place. This place is heavily under construction and when I came in I found myself getting irritated because the construction crew was blasting spanish music. I think they put on music because it was so quiet since I was dealing with getting my work cams to work with a supervisor who was on the phone but man...I have so much appreciation for most music -except maybe opera- but this shit just sounds like carnival music to me and usually it doesn't bother me but I ended up blasting music back to try and drown it out and I can tell at some points we were kinda battling each other for musical dominance. One of the workers from another department told me she was leaving the company soon because of how far she has to travel at night and with no car she is often in potential danger. She gave me a banana and a croissant before she left. I've known her for a few years now and she's really cool. I think she's from Mexico. I feel really bad for her because she was telling me about how some homeless guys took her sneakers one morning as she was heading home. She was forced to go home with only her socks. I think she has been mugged a few times because one of the construction crew guys told me there have been a number of bad incidents which is whats leading to her quitting. The crime is getting insane and there are so many people walking the streets who should be locked up somewhere. Somewhere they can either get treatment or rehab so they can become contributing members of society. I have been watching some crazy videos on Youtube about crazy criminal encounters and although I am somewhat traumatized by a bad police encounter. I have newfound respect for what law enforcement has to deal with. In another life I think perhaps I was a cop...

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 Had another potentially violent confrontation with another trans person and this time it was here at work. Just the other day it was at the 7/11 down the street. I  really wish some of these troubled individuals would be rounded up and placed in some sort of psych clinic to receive the treatment they need. Then they can become a productive part of society and the streets would be safer for the rest of us. I was talking to a co-worker and he was like even though they are a small part of the population they probably the ones who raise more ruckus. I was sitting at the desk and when this person I  will call "Sally" came to the dooor tapping to get in I followed protocol and called on the walkie for a supervisor of the dept to come and open the door. Seconds later Sally started going off about how this was all bullshit and abd people be playing games and just making a big fuss until moments later the supervisor came to let them in. They wouldn't even look me in the face when they came in and the supervisor let them into the housing area. Moments later I could hear them being very LOUD with the supervisor regardless to the fact alot of other youth were in their quarters sleeping peacefully. This went on for about a minute before I heard a door close and the supervisor walked away. About three minutes later the person came back asking me to assit them with getting belongings out of a cabinet in the room and when I told them I could not they got REALLY nasty and combative with me. He/she was like "I can take off this bra and get straight" I said "I can take off my bra and get straight too" That was right around the time when the supervisor came back as I'd called them to help the person before they got all crazy. Now see this is the type of thing that we as security have to deal with because these clowns know they can just talk to us any kind of way but they bite their tongues with the supervisors because they know they can kick them out I guess. Still "Sally" was copping an attitude with the supervisor who eventually ended up letting them go outside with no option to return till the next day. I told homeboy I wish I had his patience and he told me he was literally shaking from having to hold himself together. I looked in the mirror the other day and noticed how much grey hair I have these days and it really hit me why. 

Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodhunt (PS5)